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*Waltzes in, in a twitching sort of manner with a 's**t-eatin' grin plastered all over his face*

:::EXPLICITS ARE NOT GOING TO BE CENSORED:::
you have been warned.... mrgreen

I am soooo freaking EXCITED! I just joined the AFG, as well as the Furry Fandom. I am learning so much about a group of individuals that love pretty much everything I do too! It's so great , I finally feel like I have a home.
Ok, so check this s**t out...I am in currently enlisted in the US Air Force. Great, wonderful. Been to the Middle East once during my enlistment, was supposed to fly out in November for a second rotation. Was looking forward to it too. But I got word, half way through October, that I had received PCS Orders (Permament Change of Station). Basically, I was getting shipped somewhere else in the world to live, for the next 2-4 Years. I landed of all places, Okinawa Japan. Yes, great, awesome. I can't wait to go. No, I have tried to sneak other people in already. It ain't going to happen, I'm sorry. Back to the subject. Since I am in the Aircraft Maintenance Field, I am not guarunteed to be working on the same Aircraft when I PCS. So, since its been confirmed I am not working on the same Aircraft at my new base, the Air Force has seen fit to fly me down to Florida for 1 full month (All February) for training on the Aircraft I will be working on. I happen to be very lucky and was granted a Rental Car, purpose of which is to drag my a** from the hotel to Hurlburt Field AFB. (Yes, if you are nearby and would like to meet me, I am all for it. I know no one in the area and find the empty Hotel Room such a dull place.) Soo...I did some checking in on the Furry Fandom itself, see what the hell they might be doing in the area. Hopefully I might get to meet a group of Local Fur's that would be willing to show me around the area, what theres to do down here and the like. Come to find out theres a Convention going on in Atlanta, FEB 15-17 which just so happens to be a weekend...and its roughly 5.5 Hours away, driving. So, I set out to see how I can get to the convention. $40 Admissions Ticket at the Door, for all 3 days...well 2 in my case. I won't be able to get there until the 16th, but oh well. Ok, weekend fun, CHECK! Staying all day and making the best of the CON, HELL ******** YES! Looking forward to driving another 5.5 Hours back...no ******** way. I may be the Son of a Truck Driver, and have been known to drive 18-21 Hours straight. But thats on days when I wasn't doing anything but driving. I got a exhaustively fun and exciting and my FIRST FUR CON to go to. So I need to book a Hotel... confused
You would think that would be an easy task. Well, its not for me. See, I just found out that when I went home to see my mother for the last time in 2-4 years I accidentally spent ALL of my money, to include up to -$1,300! Which of course closed my Debit Cards. The only reason I am able to be here in Florida is the MERE FACT that the Government is PAYING FOR EVERYTHING I DO DOWN HERE, to a limited degree. I have to keep all my receipts from everything and turn them in. If they don't like one of the receipts I end up paying for it myself. And since they've already booked me "This" hotel here in Florida. Using the card they gave me for another Hotel booked during the same time frame is going to look rather suspicious...So I called around and found a hotel, about 30 minutes away from the convention, whose rates are about $50 (minus Taxes) per night. So, $100-$120 for both nights. So long as its got a bed, I don't care.
So here the ******** up part. The Government doesn't like to see 'NAMED' places on a receipt. So the Common practice is to withdraw hard cash at a ATM. This way I could go to the Gentlemens Club down the road and not get in trouble for using my government issued Credit Card for something other than Official Use Only, I could be in big s**t. (So Please don't go telling on me!)
My plan is to withdraw about $200-$220 for that weekend, drive up the night of the 15th. Pay for the Hotel in cash and spend the rest of the weekend at the convention. And the sad part is, because its a ATM receipt I'll end up getting reimbursed for it.

So essentially here's the run down. The US Government FLEW me to FLORIDA. Is PAYING for a rental car. Is paying for any and all GAS I use in said Rental Car. Is paying for BOTH Hotels I will be staying in while on the EAST COAST. And, AND is paying for my Admissions Ticket into the FWA CON 2008!

Good Good GOD! Who the hell wouldn't be as elated as I am. To know that I will be attending my FIRST FUR CON and the US Governments PAYING FOR IT ALL!

:::And now for some deeper, darker stuff. This Second half was a Elation Buzz Kill, wait..no not really. But it does drastically change the mood:::

Ok, first off, I am quite new to the actual Furry Fandom itself, as I have said. Though I have been a fan for a very long time, just hadn't been introduced into the fandom until recently. One of my biggest battles inside myself is finding my Fursona, and wishing to God that there was a dictionary given to all the new members to help associate them with words, terms, and lingo being used throughout the fandom. So, I am some what depressed over this fact. However, I did not expect to wake up one morning and BAM! There it is, er, there I am, er....yeah. you get the point.
My biggest conflict is the fact that I believe full heartedly that Death, thee Angel of Death, Fourth Horseman of the Apocalypse has visited me in a vision. I still dream about him here and there. But in the one vision I believe he visited me, he basically gave me his Scythe and the Keys to Heaven and Hell. So in some form or another, I am Death, or will help to bring about the end of the world. Kinda cool when I think about it, on a religious sense....but anywho. If I am to become this creature of Death...What right do I have to embrace my Fursona? I feel torn, like I can only choose one or the other. And to make matters worse, I am almost 100% sure I know WHAT my Fursona is too. All the soul searching I have done this past several weeks. I would love to have a compromise between the two, but unfortuneately I was instructed by Death on how to go about being Death, and the one thing that stands out the most, is the unpleasant feeling of having your skin rot away off of your body. It's not something I am looking forward too, but no one ever said that some things don't come with out consequences. So a little insight on how to solve this problem would be GREAT. I would like to find a way to keep both, but I'm afraid that any choice between the two, I would have to go with Death, and not my Fursona. (And no, it isn't a Black Jackal. But that would have been nice...)

Tired and nakey.

Did a couple of things today. Went to the RHA meeting, and helped someone move their dorm stuff into a U-Haul so they could move into a new apartment. The couch was a b***h to get out, as it was a two piece sectional, and one piece was all ******** up and angular looking.

Also, on the stairs outside my suite, there are two used condoms just laying there. It makes me wonder just what the hell happened for them to be dropped there.

EDIT: Oh joy. I just got infected by a virus. It's that retarded one that goes "This looks like you", followed by a link.

Fabulous...so the government will pay for you to frolic across Florida or get a lap dance but they'll deny myself and my family any form of financial aid or food stamps? Great. Just great.
Also, if you're torn between two representations of yourself...you could combine them.

I think the point you're missing is that you don't typically give yourself an honorific. That's something other people give you based on their relationship with you. If you gave yourself an honorific, it would be almost as if you're addressing yourself in the third person. (Japanese tends to do this anyway: "August is hungry" is accepted for "I am hungry" but saying "August-san is hungry" makes you seem like you're talking about someone else.)

Of course I said "Mr/s. ______" Because that's the closest way to duplicate an honorific in English without importing a word.

Getting off work 2 hours early may mean $14 less on my paycheck, but I really needed to be home @_@ Didn't get much sleep last night

Welcome to humanity.

Really annoys me when people mention things like this with emphasis on furries when it is something that just happens in general, no matter where you are.

Yes, it is good advice to watch one's self, but that is a rule of thumb for any situation.

First, I have this hypothesis that people who are highly creative are disproportionately likely to be unusual in other ways, such as being synaesthetic, being obsessive about certain irrelevant things (multiples of 3 for example), being schizophrenic (I know of more furries who struggle with schizophrenia than I do of non-furries who do), or the like, because the fundamental phenomenon is a high degree of neural cross-wiring. The more crosswiring, all other things being equal, the more creativity. The problem is, the more crosswiring, the more brain volatility you have - the more easily signals can get crossed, or might tip the brain from a healthy state into a pathological state of illness.

Second, I've pondered the concept of using local anaesthetics during foreplay and sex and I wonder if you would consider this cruel in some way. I haven't actually experimented, so if you have, would you consider informing me? ^^;

I also wonder if there are any water- or silicone-based anaesthetic solutions that can be bought OTC, because oil-based solutions have that unfortunate habit of munching up latex. Oh, and which aren't illegal (cocaine works, but yeah).