AFG Sallies

[Red August]

My grandfather died Friday afternoon.  

[Sunegami]

Red August

My grandfather died Friday afternoon.

Aww, I'm sorry, Red. *hug*  

[shoki_de_nai]

Well, things are going fantastic. Brother thinks I WANT him to go to jail, and mom isn't understanding why I need to think about this. I should just be taking the offer 'cause it'll fix everything. Glad things are so simple.  

[Crenn]

shoki_de_nai

Well, things are going fantastic. Brother thinks I WANT him to go to jail, and mom isn't understanding why I need to think about this. I should just be taking the offer 'cause it'll fix everything. Glad things are so simple.

Don't give in. If he didn't want to go to jail, he shouldn't have done what he did in the first place.  

[FogSage]

Locked myself out this morning. ******** BRIL idea that was.

Needless to say, by the time the front desk opened up, I'd missed all my classes for the day. =_=

I swear, I need my keys to be surgically implanted into my body somehow. Like Inspector Gadget or ********, I hate being so absentminded. Maybe I just need to start leaving my door unlocked so that I don't have to go through with this s**t.  

[Bakuram]

FogSage

Locked myself out this morning. ******** BRIL idea that was.

Needless to say, by the time the front desk opened up, I'd missed all my classes for the day. =_=

I swear, I need my keys to be surgically implanted into my body somehow. Like Inspector Gadget or ********, I hate being so absentminded. Maybe I just need to start leaving my door unlocked so that I don't have to go through with this s**t.

that....or, leave your keys in the pockets of what you're gonna wear the next day.... *scratches head*  

[Sunegami]

I always leave my keys on the kitchen counter right by the front door; that way, I always know where they are. 3nodding  

[Rainey_angel81]

I have 4 sets of keys and on my car key ring, there isn't a house key on it. For the pepper spray chain, there is. And then I have my work truck keys and other people's houses key set...my purse is heavy  

[Krissim Klaw]

FogSage

Locked myself out this morning. ******** BRIL idea that was.

Needless to say, by the time the front desk opened up, I'd missed all my classes for the day. =_=

I swear, I need my keys to be surgically implanted into my body somehow. Like Inspector Gadget or ********, I hate being so absentminded. Maybe I just need to start leaving my door unlocked so that I don't have to go through with this s**t.

lock your door from the outside every time you leave. Then you can't lock yourself out without your keys since you need the keys to lock the door. I would not suggest leaving the door unlocked. Trust me when I say there are people who rove the building testing doors to see if they can slink in and make an easier score.  

[Red August]

Before you criticize this so harshly, please realize that I am speaking from TONS of experience. This might seem like a simple matter of "running into the wrong guys" but the point that I'm trying to emphasize is that it shouldn't be so difficult to find what I'm looking for and it's all because of a moral degradation.



So to begin:

I hate being a f*****t.

I know that's a harsh word (to say the least) but nothing else can describe my contempt and lack of confidence in the scum that calls itself the "gay community" today.

My grandfather was a gay man himself. When he found out that I was gay he became immediately protective and admitted to hoping that I would change my mind. I first became defensive and told him up one side and down the other about how a lot has changed since the 60s and 70s and he should realize that. I told him that I have very strong morals and I am proud to abide by them. He eventually gave up arguing and told me that I'd one day learn.

It's only now, 3 days after his unfortunate death, that I see what he meant. I'm finding it harder and harder (especially in this wild City of Seattle that thinks a "moral" is a type of tooth) to find gay guys who are interested in anything but sex.

Of course as soon as I find a guy who's interested in just being my friend, it turns out it's only because he has an attitude that goes something like "Oh, that's OK if we're just friends because I can get sex from anyone anytime... and I do."
Is he interested in a relationship? Of course not! Not if I can't give him sex first!

So the usual defense to this is "Well you gotta try before you buy!"
I have to say that that is complete and total bullshit. Sure, you might see a nude photo of him or make out with him and grope him through his pants... but why in the world does it have to go so far as ejaculating before you're committed to him?

And then there's this other breed of guys; I'm sure you know the one I mean. They're not incredibly attractive, might be average, maybe slightly below. You kinda forget about that though because you realize that they have a fairly tame sexual past, good, strong morals, and a willingness to treat you with respect. Sure, you're not getting a god in the sack and your friends pull the shallow "you can do better" but that all doesn't matter to you because he's got a personality like no other.

And then it happens: Anything from a new haircut to the hot guy checking him out at the bar can trigger it. However it happens, you're suddenly aware that he's always wanted to sleep around; he's just never been given the opportunity. Now that the opportunity has arisen he's off to ******** the brains out of every blond twink he can possibly find to take him.


So I suddenly am aware that the only way I can possibly find happiness with a man is to give up everything that I feel makes me who I am. I have to sleep around and offer my body to any guy I find that interests me because that's the only way he'll even consider dating me. Otherwise, he'll just be my friend and continue to ******** around.

Hell.... he might even ******** around while we're dating.


And since my morals are something I'd die without... I guess my only options are to be alone or be straight. I don't know if I can handle either...  

[Krissim Klaw]

Red August

So I suddenly am aware that the only way I can possibly find happiness with a man is to give up everything that I feel makes me who I am. I have to sleep around and offer my body to any guy I find that interests me because that's the only way he'll even consider dating me. Otherwise, he'll just be my friend and continue to ******** around.

Hell.... he might even ******** around while we're dating.

Lawls that isn't a gay thing that is a guy thing. rofl

Honestly I wish I could give you some advice, but the world is full of horrible turds in both genders. I wouldn't sacrifice who you are or what you like though in a hunt for a mate. If you do, your never going to find the happiness you seek. All I can say is there are people out there, who are right for you, you just have to have faith and keep plowing through the sucky ones till you hit one of the good ones.  

[Rastiel]

I'd actually suggest looking for a more mature gay man, someone in their 30's maybe. I know it sounds ick, but if you're looking to avoid someone who's all party and sleaze, then an older man might be the answer.

I just don't get it with the young crazy gay male lifestyle. There's more to life than taking ecstasy, drinking and dancing, and then having a quick ******** in a bathroom that's already occupied by four other people doing the exact same thing. What ever happened to being a rather dull person? I'd settle for a normal kind of guy, the kind of guy who works a 9-5 job, comes home, has a beer (maybe), and watches some football on TV. I'd come home from my job and we might cook something together and have dinner. If he felt like it, we might have sex afterwards and then sleep. Not the most exciting way of living, but it has it's charms.

I don't know. It's depressing how grim the gay dating scene is.  

[Rainey_angel81]

CoffeeFox

I'd actually suggest looking for a more mature gay man, someone in their 30's maybe. I know it sounds ick, but if you're looking to avoid someone who's all party and sleaze, then an older man might be the answer.

I just don't get it with the young crazy gay male lifestyle. There's more to life than taking ecstasy, drinking and dancing, and then having a quick ******** in a bathroom that's already occupied by four other people doing the exact same thing. What ever happened to being a rather dull person? I'd settle for a normal kind of guy, the kind of guy who works a 9-5 job, comes home, has a beer (maybe), and watches some football on TV. I'd come home from my job and we might cook something together and have dinner. If he felt like it, we might have sex afterwards and then sleep. Not the most exciting way of living, but it has it's charms.

I don't know. It's depressing how grim the gay dating scene is.

I've only heard about the gay side of the dating scene but not the lesbian side. I've had several gay and lesbian friends and seems like both sides are fairly raunchy. But the funny thing is, is that in my dog training group, we always seem to have a lesbian in there and both women have had really fulfilling and lengthy relationships with their partners.
I think J. (omitted name for safety) just celebrated her 35th anniversary with her partner and the other one celebrated their 30th anniversary.

So hang in there.  

[Garek Maxwell]

CoffeeFox

I'd actually suggest looking for a more mature gay man, someone in their 30's maybe. I know it sounds ick, but if you're looking to avoid someone who's all party and sleaze, then an older man might be the answer.

I don't see anything wrong with a guy in his 30s. That's not that old. It's not like he's all grey and wrinkled. razz Plus, I've seen some really hot guys that are in their 30s... Though that was porn...

CoffeeFox

I just don't get it with the young crazy gay male lifestyle. There's more to life than taking ecstasy, drinking and dancing, and then having a quick ******** in a bathroom that's already occupied by four other people doing the exact same thing.

I think that's the crazy and young lifestyle, men can just do the same thing more often. razz

CoffeeFox

What ever happened to being a rather dull person? I'd settle for a normal kind of guy, the kind of guy who works a 9-5 job, comes home, has a beer (maybe), and watches some football on TV. I'd come home from my job and we might cook something together and have dinner. If he felt like it, we might have sex afterwards and then sleep. Not the most exciting way of living, but it has it's charms.

I could go for the same thing Fog...minus the football. (I don't get it. <.<; ) Though I certainly wouldn't mind a little excitement...you know...doing something risky and rebellious... like buying a lottery ticket! surprised  

[Red August]

Well...

I'd like to take back most of what I said. The man for me has been right in front of my face for a long, long time. Unfortunately he's only up for being friends at this stage but he's shown me more love than anyone else in my past. I think something good can definitely come of this.