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 Posted: Fri Aug 21, 2009 8:39 pm
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i too am an atheist i believe in no god, no devil, nothing of the sort. i too feel pain, my pain is not severe but it never goes away. my mother is bipolar, my father has an extreme anxiety disorder so bad he can't even go out in public. i see death, i hear it, i except it! the pain of death is greater then the pain you will feel through out your whole life! it is almost unimaginable! so, as said previously, except death, except the circle, expect the balance.
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Posted: Fri Aug 21, 2009 8:56 pm
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Posted: Fri Aug 21, 2009 9:01 pm
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Posted: Fri Aug 21, 2009 9:22 pm
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kitten, one of the main differences between us is, you seem to live in the past, you shouldn't think about the present either, the future, that is where you should be headed! if things are bad now, were bad in the past, then you look to the future for new hope! the human race is slowly killing itself, so even if you do look toward the future tragedy will happen, you must shrug it off! you must keep moving! you must be strong! the chain is only as strong as its weakest link,right now most of these "pieces of chain" are weak, you must strengthen them by being strong yourself. even the strongest of us have weaknesses, for me its the past, it always brings me into tears not because of sadness but from happiness, no matter how cold, how hard, how bitter a person gets there always a soft side. for you i believe your weakness is death and tragedy, you will always have that weakness, but you can lessen it by excepting death, not just your own but the deaths of everyone around you.
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Posted: Fri Aug 21, 2009 9:32 pm
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Posted: Sat Aug 22, 2009 12:22 am
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Posted: Sat Aug 22, 2009 12:30 am
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Posted: Sat Aug 22, 2009 8:21 am
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Posted: Sat Aug 22, 2009 10:38 am
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Connorthecreator kitten, one of the main differences between us is, you seem to live in the past, you shouldn't think about the present either, the future, that is where you should be headed! if things are bad now, were bad in the past, then you look to the future for new hope! the human race is slowly killing itself, so even if you do look toward the future tragedy will happen, you must shrug it off! you must keep moving! you must be strong! the chain is only as strong as its weakest link,right now most of these "pieces of chain" are weak, you must strengthen them by being strong yourself. even the strongest of us have weaknesses, for me its the past, it always brings me into tears not because of sadness but from happiness, no matter how cold, how hard, how bitter a person gets there always a soft side. for you i believe your weakness is death and tragedy, you will always have that weakness, but you can lessen it by excepting death, not just your own but the deaths of everyone around you.
i look to the past for answers to things now. My future. I have a slim chance for living into the future. I don't like to think about where I am going, for the fact I don't know where I am in life. All i know is this:
I could be...
A Therapist
A writer
A author
A poet
A actress
or
A singer for some hotel lounge or f***
Yes I know they all seem like childish dreams (the last 2) but you people have not seen me act or sing, so, who knows, maybe I will!!
I'm going to at least 4 years of college: 2 community college. 2 in Arts college in Seattle....
That's it.
But the only future thing I'm focusing on is a poet, right now.
I want to get married, and I can bet money you ALL know who my friends think my groom will be...(uhhh i feel so stupid saying that but still)....
My future has a slim chance of me succeeding becuz well....those are hard things to accomplish in life and some are very stressful. So I might not make it. |
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Posted: Sat Aug 22, 2009 10:58 am
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Posted: Sat Aug 22, 2009 11:28 am
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Posted: Sat Aug 22, 2009 11:43 am
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Posted: Sat Aug 22, 2009 6:32 pm
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Posted: Sat Aug 22, 2009 8:20 pm
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kitten254 .....let me tell you something.... I have gone through pain. I have made the worst mistakes anyone can make. I have cut. I know that took some time to write but listen. Pain for me is inevitable. I feel it every second. Your thinking,"That's impossible" well guess what, it aint!..... If someone grabs me by my neck...not trying to choke me...they will choke me cuz....i have a dead muscle in my neck...and when someone touches it...i can't breathe.... I have died!...That dead muscle is from when a "friend" picked me up in that stupid prince charming thing and choked me with her arm cuz she didn't want me to get out of the head lock she had on me. I started seeing the light. I actually died....i saw it all....god and everything....then she let go of me when she said my eyes went black....i started breathing and very slowly the light went away...she laid me down on the school field...and i was soo shocked i was paralyzed...i couldn't move..... The recess teachers and some students picked me up and took me to the nurses office...where i laid on the bed... It took me 20 seconds to actually inhale and exhale for about and hour. So now when i do certain things...i choke myself...ya.... i feel pain from emotions all the time cuz im bi-polar and i have schizophrenia (look it up).......... I'm messed up and i emo.... if all you said before was based off religion let me tell you right now...i have no religion!...I'm not atheist... I just dont have a religion |
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Posted: Sat Aug 22, 2009 8:47 pm
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