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 Posted: Sat Jul 19, 2008 1:14 am
schulte dude, it's ok. in the first one, you still look like a guy. a 16 year old one, but come on. That's something. sweatdrop
if it makes you feel better, I recently came across a pic of me from oh, about 5 years ago. 6th grade. I started getting super butch in 4th, but 6th was when I grew out my hair to donate it for Locks of Love. that same year, my uncle got married. So I was forced into a dress. with my long hair. When I came across that photo, there was a bit of a lump in my throat. Seeing me like that, from any time, is like seeing a ghost. It's ******** up isn't it man? Like I said...worst I will let you SEE. I can understand how you feel as far as that picture goes and I don't mean to sound like an a** and say 'you don't know how it feels' because to you that is a major thing. But for me everything about my body is wrong. I'm getting to the point where I can't stand it anymore. It just...I dunno...shut up.
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Posted: Sat Jul 19, 2008 1:15 am
oh man, i don't know if i have pictures
but me and my friend gina cut our hair for a locks of love type deal
and it was REALLY short,
it looked HORRIBLE, my face is way too round.
the pictures are funny.
idk if i have them, i'll look though. :]
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Posted: Sat Jul 19, 2008 1:21 am
mynameisafad schulte dude, it's ok. in the first one, you still look like a guy. a 16 year old one, but come on. That's something. sweatdrop
if it makes you feel better, I recently came across a pic of me from oh, about 5 years ago. 6th grade. I started getting super butch in 4th, but 6th was when I grew out my hair to donate it for Locks of Love. that same year, my uncle got married. So I was forced into a dress. with my long hair. When I came across that photo, there was a bit of a lump in my throat. Seeing me like that, from any time, is like seeing a ghost. It's ******** up isn't it man? Like I said...worst I will let you SEE. I can understand how you feel as far as that picture goes and I don't mean to sound like an a** and say 'you don't know how it feels' because to you that is a major thing. But for me everything about my body is wrong. I'm getting to the point where I can't stand it anymore. It just...I dunno...shut up.
up until later in 2007, I considered myself trans too.
I've felt trapped in the wrong body. I've felt like a freak. I've cried in my pillow so many times. I've been sent to therapy. I've been suicidal.
I've been through the same things as you.
but the thing is... I gave up. I don't know how, but I settled for gay. I never thought I would, never thought I could settle for anything but male, but I did.
so I totally, utterly, understand. I got your back, OK? sweatdrop
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Posted: Sat Jul 19, 2008 1:25 am
schulte mynameisafad schulte dude, it's ok. in the first one, you still look like a guy. a 16 year old one, but come on. That's something. sweatdrop
if it makes you feel better, I recently came across a pic of me from oh, about 5 years ago. 6th grade. I started getting super butch in 4th, but 6th was when I grew out my hair to donate it for Locks of Love. that same year, my uncle got married. So I was forced into a dress. with my long hair. When I came across that photo, there was a bit of a lump in my throat. Seeing me like that, from any time, is like seeing a ghost. It's ******** up isn't it man? Like I said...worst I will let you SEE. I can understand how you feel as far as that picture goes and I don't mean to sound like an a** and say 'you don't know how it feels' because to you that is a major thing. But for me everything about my body is wrong. I'm getting to the point where I can't stand it anymore. It just...I dunno...shut up.
up until later in 2007, I considered myself trans too.
I've felt trapped in the wrong body. I've felt like a freak. I've cried in my pillow so many times. I've been sent to therapy. I've been suicidal.
I've been through the same things as you.
but the thing is... I gave up. I don't know how, but I settled for gay. I never thought I would, never thought I could settle for anything but male, but I did.
so I totally, utterly, understand. I got your back, OK? sweatdrop Haha...it's funny to hear that from someone younger than me. Usually I can put up with myself pretty well...must be the alcohol. Anyway thanks. But I can't settle for gay. I hate when girls fondle me. It's just not okay because that's not me.
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Posted: Sat Jul 19, 2008 1:33 am
mynameisafad schulte mynameisafad schulte dude, it's ok. in the first one, you still look like a guy. a 16 year old one, but come on. That's something. sweatdrop
if it makes you feel better, I recently came across a pic of me from oh, about 5 years ago. 6th grade. I started getting super butch in 4th, but 6th was when I grew out my hair to donate it for Locks of Love. that same year, my uncle got married. So I was forced into a dress. with my long hair. When I came across that photo, there was a bit of a lump in my throat. Seeing me like that, from any time, is like seeing a ghost. It's ******** up isn't it man? Like I said...worst I will let you SEE. I can understand how you feel as far as that picture goes and I don't mean to sound like an a** and say 'you don't know how it feels' because to you that is a major thing. But for me everything about my body is wrong. I'm getting to the point where I can't stand it anymore. It just...I dunno...shut up.
up until later in 2007, I considered myself trans too.
I've felt trapped in the wrong body. I've felt like a freak. I've cried in my pillow so many times. I've been sent to therapy. I've been suicidal.
I've been through the same things as you.
but the thing is... I gave up. I don't know how, but I settled for gay. I never thought I would, never thought I could settle for anything but male, but I did.
so I totally, utterly, understand. I got your back, OK? sweatdrop Haha...it's funny to hear that from someone younger than me. Usually I can put up with myself pretty well...must be the alcohol. Anyway thanks. But I can't settle for gay. I hate when girls fondle me. It's just not okay because that's not me.
my age has got to be why I settled for gay, every night I would think, "ok I have T-minus 8 years until I can do hormones, pronouns, surgeries, etc and actually have a shred of happiness in my life." and the thought of having to go through high school and maybe college in the living hell I knew so well was like ramming nails up my eyelids. The wait honestly scared the s**t out of me. and I'm way too young to make myself strong for the adversity involved. sweatdrop
yeah, I know what you mean. totally stone, man. It's like, "hey don't touch that, it ain't supposed to be there." talk2hand
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Posted: Sat Jul 19, 2008 1:37 am
schulte mynameisafad schulte mynameisafad schulte dude, it's ok. in the first one, you still look like a guy. a 16 year old one, but come on. That's something. sweatdrop
if it makes you feel better, I recently came across a pic of me from oh, about 5 years ago. 6th grade. I started getting super butch in 4th, but 6th was when I grew out my hair to donate it for Locks of Love. that same year, my uncle got married. So I was forced into a dress. with my long hair. When I came across that photo, there was a bit of a lump in my throat. Seeing me like that, from any time, is like seeing a ghost. It's ******** up isn't it man? Like I said...worst I will let you SEE. I can understand how you feel as far as that picture goes and I don't mean to sound like an a** and say 'you don't know how it feels' because to you that is a major thing. But for me everything about my body is wrong. I'm getting to the point where I can't stand it anymore. It just...I dunno...shut up.
up until later in 2007, I considered myself trans too.
I've felt trapped in the wrong body. I've felt like a freak. I've cried in my pillow so many times. I've been sent to therapy. I've been suicidal.
I've been through the same things as you.
but the thing is... I gave up. I don't know how, but I settled for gay. I never thought I would, never thought I could settle for anything but male, but I did.
so I totally, utterly, understand. I got your back, OK? sweatdrop Haha...it's funny to hear that from someone younger than me. Usually I can put up with myself pretty well...must be the alcohol. Anyway thanks. But I can't settle for gay. I hate when girls fondle me. It's just not okay because that's not me.
my age has got to be why I settled for gay, every night I would think, "ok I have T-minus 8 years until I can do hormones, pronouns, surgeries, etc and actually have a shred of happiness in my life." and the thought of having to go through high school and maybe college in the living hell I knew so well was like ramming nails up my eyelids. The wait honestly scared the s**t out of me. and I'm way too young to make myself strong for the adversity involved. sweatdrop
yeah, I know what you mean. totally stone, man. It's like, "hey don't touch that, it ain't supposed to be there." talk2hand Well I currently am saving up the money for surgery so...I'm still having issues. And I know you haven't heard any of my music but it's like...so important to me that I'm debating if I should take T. I don't want my voice to get any lower or I can't sing the songs I've written. So maybe after chest surgery I'll figure out what I'm going to do about T... See you get that, I get that, other FtM's they get it. Lesbian and Bi girls? Not so much...
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Posted: Sat Jul 19, 2008 1:43 am
mynameisafad schulte mynameisafad schulte mynameisafad schulte dude, it's ok. in the first one, you still look like a guy. a 16 year old one, but come on. That's something. sweatdrop
if it makes you feel better, I recently came across a pic of me from oh, about 5 years ago. 6th grade. I started getting super butch in 4th, but 6th was when I grew out my hair to donate it for Locks of Love. that same year, my uncle got married. So I was forced into a dress. with my long hair. When I came across that photo, there was a bit of a lump in my throat. Seeing me like that, from any time, is like seeing a ghost. It's ******** up isn't it man? Like I said...worst I will let you SEE. I can understand how you feel as far as that picture goes and I don't mean to sound like an a** and say 'you don't know how it feels' because to you that is a major thing. But for me everything about my body is wrong. I'm getting to the point where I can't stand it anymore. It just...I dunno...shut up.
up until later in 2007, I considered myself trans too.
I've felt trapped in the wrong body. I've felt like a freak. I've cried in my pillow so many times. I've been sent to therapy. I've been suicidal.
I've been through the same things as you.
but the thing is... I gave up. I don't know how, but I settled for gay. I never thought I would, never thought I could settle for anything but male, but I did.
so I totally, utterly, understand. I got your back, OK? sweatdrop Haha...it's funny to hear that from someone younger than me. Usually I can put up with myself pretty well...must be the alcohol. Anyway thanks. But I can't settle for gay. I hate when girls fondle me. It's just not okay because that's not me.
my age has got to be why I settled for gay, every night I would think, "ok I have T-minus 8 years until I can do hormones, pronouns, surgeries, etc and actually have a shred of happiness in my life." and the thought of having to go through high school and maybe college in the living hell I knew so well was like ramming nails up my eyelids. The wait honestly scared the s**t out of me. and I'm way too young to make myself strong for the adversity involved. sweatdrop
yeah, I know what you mean. totally stone, man. It's like, "hey don't touch that, it ain't supposed to be there." talk2hand Well I currently am saving up the money for surgery so...I'm still having issues. And I know you haven't heard any of my music but it's like...so important to me that I'm debating if I should take T. I don't want my voice to get any lower or I can't sing the songs I've written. So maybe after chest surgery I'll figure out what I'm going to do about T... See you get that, I get that, other FtM's they get it. Lesbian and Bi girls? Not so much...
bro, I have never had a girlfriend who has got that. xd
I'm like, "leave me alone, you're supposed to be my b***h."
but what really bugs me is terms of endearment... I had one girl who always called me dear and s**t. Drove me bananas. I was all, "Daddy will do just fine, so stfu."
xd
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Posted: Sat Jul 19, 2008 1:46 am
schulte yeah man, I'm not gonna go through T or pronouns, but I still would totally love a top job... man, that would be the coolest. 3nodding
bro, I have never had a girlfriend who has got that. xd
I'm like, "leave me alone, you're supposed to be my b***h."
but what really bugs me is terms of endearment... I had one girl who always called me dear and s**t. Drove me bananas. I was all, "Daddy will do just fine, so stfu."
xd 4000 euros...that's what it'll take for my top surgery. (Um...6000 US dollars?) roughly..My mum's going to help me pay for it but that won't be happening for about a year. I am happy I recently got my name and gender changed on my ID and I got an STP. All good. Another step closer.
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Posted: Sat Jul 19, 2008 1:54 am
well don't worry. From what I've seen you're pretty flat already. I believe in you to make it until then. 3nodding
I haven't planned how to do mine, but it's always been a dream of mine. sweatdrop
this is completely off subject but I need to get a webcam. I want to share my music too. 3nodding well... music isn't quite the word for it, since I do drums. and lyrics. But both at the same time by myself doesn't work.
I agree with your wish, I want to be in a band so bad. I feel like I'm wasting away.
end of speech. I'm going to bad. I've got drums practice with my instructor bright and early. cheese_whine
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Posted: Sat Jul 19, 2008 1:55 am
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Posted: Sat Jul 19, 2008 2:32 am
Pfahahaha, I'm such a dork. >> Has anyone else seen The Dark Knight yet? 
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Posted: Sat Jul 19, 2008 9:17 am
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Posted: Sat Jul 19, 2008 9:19 am
Aint No Elvis  FOR SERIOUSLY. stare Wow that's a very interesting picture haha.
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Posted: Sat Jul 19, 2008 9:26 am
Aint No Elvis FOR SERIOUSLY. stare
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Posted: Sat Jul 19, 2008 9:41 am
Nyu-sama Aint No Elvis FOR SERIOUSLY. stare My god, I actually saw somebody with glasses just like those the other day!! XDD Awesome pic btw
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