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YES, I am always angry when I'm back home
because there is never a time when I can be left alone
my mom and s**t sister always come in
when I am trying to write, or read, or whatever, "SUHLEESHA WTF R U DOIN!?"
And they don't ******** leave until I yell at them
And then they get bitchy, and it SERIOUSLY PISSES ME OFF, BECAUSE WHY CAN'T THEY JUST STAY THE HELL OUT OF MY ROOM IN THE FIRST PLACE??
And my dad is just stupid,
"Lol suhleesha yur growin' up now. so youd better start workin' harder lol or you'll starve to death"
And don't you think I'm trying?
THAT, and I'm always reminded (EVERYWHERE), how everyone's better than me
because they have talent and good looks and intelligence and s**t, and I'm just the random person who has to be HAPPY ALL THE ******** TIME around my friends, because I'm their little ray of sunshine, and I am special, because I am a sweetie face and all that other s**t they try to tell me to cheer me up,
but I don't care if I'm a sweetie face. Because being nice and just laying down and taking it up the a** won't get me anywhere. And I can't do anything else.
AND ON TOP OF THAT, I have been angryfrustrated for two weeks straight, and I CAN'T EVEN CRY, because
s**t I don't know.
I just can't.
Until the family pisses me off and I seriously contemplate shoving them down the stairs or hitting them with a knife
and then I scream, because I can't, because that means I'll go to jail and we all want that.
And then they scream back, "SUHLEESHA YUR KILLING US"
But no I'm not, but I wish I were, you insensitive jackasses.
But by then, I'm crying because I'm ANGRY AT THEM, and not because I'm ANGRY AT ME, so it's different, and after I'm done with that, I'm even more angry at me because I don't have the balls to tell them that I hate them.
Also, I have itchy mosquito bites and itchy everything on my legs and I have nothing to do for the rest of the summer and then I'm going back to school but my retarded mom went and got me a ticket that gets there 2 days earlier than I'm supposed to, so I get to stay with FACULTY,
which is just going to be the most awkward thing ever
and I'd be looking forward to school if there wasn't that waiting for me, as well as preseason,
and the fact that I am missing many dorm necessities and have yet to buy them.
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