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Posted: Sun Apr 19, 2009 12:28 pm
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MIne doesn't come from most places. Mine was frm whe nI was a child. no one ever cured for what I had to say or what I wanted. I never had any real friends just the friend that use you for things untell they are bored of you/you're stuff. My mom always said I was useless, and stuff. So I grew in to knowing how I'm not liked and will not be liked. although my spelling lacks, my commen smarts, and indept brain power is really good. It's not that I'm smart, but I see the things that most wont want to see, I'm detaled, all because I never had anyone to help me learn things, I learn them my self, by figering out how it works. But at anycase, I no longer push people away... I just don't let them get close. In my mind I don't chose to be alone, I just think no one cares for me enough to want to hang out. but no matter. this is my life and I live it how I think I should. Anti-deperation pills, help... kinda. I feel that they them selfs do nothing, but make you feel like nothing is wrong, so you feel better.
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Posted: Sun Apr 19, 2009 4:21 pm
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Posted: Tue Apr 21, 2009 6:24 pm
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Posted: Tue May 12, 2009 10:01 pm
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Posted: Thu May 14, 2009 3:43 am
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xXSad Emo KittehXx justice_prime I think music can be a tool for folks to feel better... All I do is listen to some upbeat or light hearted music and sing along and I feel better in a matter of minutes. except when even the music you love gets you down i cant really do anything anymore with out feeling sad or depressed and it sucks like hell
I know that feeling. It sucks right? Nothing is worth doing anymore. You just wanna give up and hide away in your room? Nothing is important... Nothing matters... Even your favorite games/sports/music/etc... Is just not interesting anymore... I definitely know that feeling.
Here's what I did, and I see you starting it already. I saw this as a problem, right? I knew it wasn't logical to be acting/feeling that way, and that it wasn't normal... It was BULLSHIT that I was feeling like that, right? I have a home, even if it's not a big fancy mansion, it's still a place to sleep at night. I had food. Maybe not a whole lot of food, but it's better than nothing. Something in the belly is a good thing... And realizing that NOT eating only makes it worse... Eventually your stomach acid becomes too acidic and starts eating at your stomach wall, and that's not fun... Bad experiences. :XP And, of course, you've got a computer to use. It may be a shitty gateway with dialup connection, but it's better than those kids at the orphanage that don't have one at all...
I then proceeded to go outside and... exercise... Anything... I went camping to take my mind off. Just in my back yard. I grabbed a tent, some canned food, an axe, etc... And I chopped wood until my arms couldn't lift the axe anymore. (I'm not a big guy, so that didn't take long. xD ) And then I read a book in the tent... The next day, I made sure to stay outside of the house... Whatever it took... I needed to be out. Ran a little... Did pushups... I started taking Tai Kwon Do classes in high school, because I didn't want to do any sports (Flaw in my logic there? ninja ) I started doing new things... And kept doing new things... Meeting new people by FORCING myself to do all this... It was hard at first... REALLY F***ing HARD TO DO, because it seemed pointless...
I'm currently in the Navy studying to be a Nuclear Electrician for an aircraft carrier. I'm... a happier person. It CAN get better. But it starts with you, my friend... If you need a friend to talk to, just ask anyone in the guild. You can talk to me too. ^^
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Posted: Sat May 16, 2009 6:05 pm
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Posted: Mon May 18, 2009 11:46 pm
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Posted: Tue May 26, 2009 12:27 pm
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Posted: Wed May 27, 2009 10:44 am
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Posted: Wed Jun 03, 2009 11:13 pm
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Posted: Mon Jun 08, 2009 6:27 pm
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Posted: Mon Jun 08, 2009 6:30 pm
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Posted: Wed Jun 24, 2009 10:42 pm
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