sin by no sin

[Blue_Innis]

The lord said, with his reverberating voice
Seperate and propagate
to be fruitful in numbers
well now looks like I cant even do that

It's not like I believe in a god
but the fact that it hurts me, its odd
why do I care If I can't do that?
It shouldn't affect me, I got to face facts

But oh no, the shame seethes through
Feels like theres nothing left do
Kids are geat, They make me feel alive
but now, I don't even want to survive




...well I went to the doctor not too long ago to get something checked out. apparently it is a "sin" to not sin. The kind of sinning little catholic boys get scolded for. And something happened... and my GF broke up with me. So I went to the hospital to see if it was a unnatural cause.

Turns out I can't have kids. Nope. Nadar. Not that its impossible, but the ******** odds are so ******** low It may as well be impossible. I would get into details but I feel like an emo brooding over this. meh maybe I am.  

[The Slate Scholar]

Okay, small question: You aren't seriously thinking of
having children at age sixteen, are you? That is way
too young to be having children anyway. Too young
to even be thinking about it either.

You need to elaborate on the "sin" of which you speak.
I'm not Catholic, so I know nothing about what they
would get scolded for. And the not having children part:
Is it that you are sterile? Does your sperm not contain
enough chromosomes [not enough DNA]? Is the "sin"
of which you speak masturbation? Did the doctor say
that it was a problem that you couldn't ejaculate or
something?  

[Blue_Innis]

The Slate Scholar

Okay, small question: You aren't seriously thinking of
having children at age sixteen, are you? That is way
too young to be having children anyway. Too young
to even be thinking about it either.

You need to elaborate on the "sin" of which you speak.
I'm not Catholic, so I know nothing about what they
would get scolded for. And the not having children part:
Is it that you are sterile? Does your sperm not contain
enough chromosomes [not enough DNA]? Is the "sin"
of which you speak masturbation? Did the doctor say
that it was a problem that you couldn't ejaculate or
something?

sorry, I usually dont elaborate much. Thats always the promblem. Yeah. Basicly in catholic terms a sin is "anything that makes you happy" thats what the sisters really told me O.o.

It not that I can't ejaculate. I'm sterile.. Of course I'm thinking about having kids! but now just.... screw it  

[RivenPanic]

Adoption is good. Family can wait until life gets balanced out and everything like that. Don't think about it this early in life...it will only complicate things.