How have you changed?

[Laharl Part Deux]

Lately I've been very reflective. Especially in looking back on who I used to be: a girl who lacked confidence and did know who she was . It's starling to me how I could've lived before being so afraid of people, and new things. Now I look at how far I've come in the past year and a half. I see someone who has quite a unique personality. A chick who is unafraid and likes what she likes and doesn't give a damn about what any person thinks. Someone who has become completely taken by music. I love who I am now. Although I look forward to growing more as I get older.

So my question is: How have you change over the past couple of years? Or have you remained relatively the same? Do you like fwho you've become?  

[Spooky Wasabi Princess]

I've changed a lot in the past ten years.

When I was 12 I started getting depressed because I never grieved properly for my uncle. Lots of crap got backed up and festered. I was a pretty depressed teenager. I was passive, agreed with everyone about things I didn't agree with, low self esteem, let people kick me around. I drank too much, I hurt myself. Pills and shrinks. s**t got worse every year.
A couple of years ago I was trying so hard to get better but nothing was working so I decided to indulge my depression and hit bottom as hard as I could hit it. Believe it or not, that made me better. It was like... I shot down as fast as I could and exploded out of it instead of getting stuck.

Now I'm great. I don't take any crap from the people I did back then. I have a very strong personality and it's all mine instead of what others made it (someone once referred to me as being a doll they played with). I know who I am and what I want and I'm not scared of anything any more.
I think that's the big change- not being scared.

I'm very different. For the better.  

[Rellik San]

Does ascending to god hood count?

Haha, all I can really say thats ever changed about me, is I'm a little less naive and a lot more confident. smile  

[Kakei Setsunai]

I think the thing thats changed most about me would have to be I have more self-confidence.
And the color of my hair, which did help with that also.  

[ShadowLotus]

My personality has stayed the same really... But I have become stronger, I don't trust people so easily (but I give them a first chance), and I've become much more depressed..cause life just plain sucks.

My style has changed too. No more baggy shirts and I prefer baggy skirts and pants. I dress darker and love it.

I also think it's been the better of me. I can't say it's made me more confident, but it really has made me love who I appear and what I've overall become.

 

[babykitty18]

My personality didn't change a bit, thank the devil twisted lmao, but the way i am and my confidence has a lot. I use to be a real cry-baby. If i didn't get what i wanted i would pout, cry, or give attitude. But since i grew up a bit (only 17) i learned that i can't be like that. So i stopped my crying, took things as they were and i don't take as much crap from peeps as i use too xd I turned dark and work dark clothes more. Peeps thought i was just a poser but i didn't care what they thought of me. It's what i like! GET OVER IT! scream lol
Am i happy with who i am now?...kinda but not really. Im trying to get ride of my selfishness. I really want to, but its hard! But im still motivated to stop trying to make things about me and make it bout other peeps! 3nodding heart  

[Laharl Part Deux]

babykitty18

Im trying to get rid of my selfishness. I really want to, but its hard! But im still motivated to stop trying to make things about me and make it bout other peeps! 3nodding heart

I understand I'm going through a bit of that right now. I'm finding I want things so badly, and I think that having them will make me happier.( even though thats not true) So theres a lot of fighting I have to do with myself. But at seventeen you shouldn't worry too much about selfishness. Being young allows for that. You want to go and do things and you want the prettiest clothes. It's just a natural thing for the young...not like I'm old at nineteen...  

[Laharl Part Deux]

Rellik San

Does ascending to god hood count?

Ascending to god hood only counts if I am recognized as THE force  

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Laharl Part Dux

Lately I've been very reflective. Especially in looking back on who I used to be: a girl who lacked confidence and did know who she was . It's starling to me how I could've lived before being so afraid of people, and new things. Now I look at how far I've come in the past year and a half. I see someone who has quite a unique personality. A chick who is unafraid and likes what she likes and doesn't give a damn about what any person thinks. Someone who has become completely taken by music. I love who I am now. Although I look forward to growing more as I get older.

So my question is: How have you change over the past couple of years? Or have you remained relatively the same? Do you like fwho you've become?

I'm similar to you. I wasn't really surrounded by people with different minds and if anyone thought differently, they wouldn't say. I went to a public school which had uniform so I really didn't own anything spiffy and new things I sort of saw as weird. But then I went to a high school that offered a 7th and 8th grade program for smart kids (although most of the kids weren't smart 3nodding ). The dress code was EXTREMELY LENIENT (TO THE MAX wahmbulance wahmbulance burning_eyes eek ). So it was there that I met kids who weren't afraid to open their mouths and that had different fashion senses than a shirt and a pair of jeans. This has influenced me with my clothing and now I really understand who I am and what I like. My confidence has also boosted because of this.  

[xStephanx]

Laharl Part Dux

So my question is: How have you change over the past couple of years? Or have you remained relatively the same? Do you like fwho you've become?

I'm glad we're limiting this to the last two years, or I'd be here all night lol.

Two years ago, I had completed my first semester at university. My confidence in myself was extremely high and my optimism was incredible. My music taste was extremely diverse, and my dress sense was kind of non-desciptive and generic, by intention. I had an easy time making friends and was rather extroverted, and generally quite hyped to be alive.

Since then my journey through life (how poetic?) had included going to every type of music event imaginable - live gigs, festivals, nightclubs of all genres, raves. I've heard more genres of music and more artists than my head can possibly hold. Everything from Glastonbury to Infest, from Download to Mera Luna.

I've also experienced a lot as a person. I've been jaded and faded in ways, and made stronger and happier in others. I've experienced successes and failures which have taught me to be confident or just taught me lessons.

I have moved on a little in the past two years, but at the core, I feel the same. If there even is a core - one of the beauties of life is that its so subject to change.  

[destructive emotions]

Its not that i have changed. Its not that my attitude changed.
I was one of those children who wore bright flowers on my shirt.
I never changed (going goth is something that happened. I didnt just wake up one moment and decide to become goth)
I just grew up.

 

[Rellik San]

You know what one change I wish I was able to make mentally...

I wish I had the capacity to be a b*****d.  

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Rellik San

You know what one change I wish I was able to make mentally...

I wish I had the capacity to be a b*****d.

Why?  

[Rellik San]

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Rellik San

You know what one change I wish I was able to make mentally...

I wish I had the capacity to be a b*****d.

Why?

Because it would things easier and much less complicated for me sometimes. -_-  

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Rellik San

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Rellik San

You know what one change I wish I was able to make mentally...

I wish I had the capacity to be a b*****d.

Why?

Because it would things easier and much less complicated for me sometimes. -_-

I dont get why someone would want the capacity to be mean.

I hate the fact I'm a b***h to people