Fedha felt like... such a fool. He'd left Ausi alone for quite some time now. He'd avoided his children and for the most part stayed alone. He'd slept more and more through out his days because he had nothing better to do, it just seemed the answer. His tail flicked as he prowled back and forth, thinking of what to do. He'd run into Ivie the other day. He'd found everything out... she'd tried to tell him the cubs were his but... and he'd almost believed her! He felt so stupid... he needed to find Ausi... he needed to beg for her forgiveness... why had he shut her out?
Ausi was still upset at Fedha about the little fight the two had, and after running into that green female again.. she was so very hurt, and had almost attacked her out of anger. She didn’t like being this way but she felt trapped. Had Fedha really did this to her? Did he really.. love someone else?
She didn’t know.
Tears swelled within her eyes as she sat alone and gazed out at the sea, her tail curling along her side for comfort.
"Okay. Just go." He said to himself. He thought Ausi might be pissed at him if he showed up again... but on the other paw she still loved him, right? Oh he could only pray she loved him... She'd been the only good to come from his crummy life... what great plans he'd had! And how they'd crashed down arond him... why couldn't he just be content playing the part of a caring father and a loving mate? A mate who could tell his partner anything?
He stalked forward, stance slightly guilty looking. Oh he hoped Ausi wouldn't get too terribly upset when he showed up.
It took him a while to find her scent but finally he was able to pick up on it. He followed it only for a few minutes when he spotted the dark beauty not too far off. He froze and stared at he a moment, his heart tightening. Oh his Ausi! Why was he so bad to her?
She turned her gaze as he approached and sighed. She really didn’t want to fight with him anymore, she was so sick of it. Tilting her head to the side she frowned and spoke out.
“Hey…”
She was so lost. What on earth should she say to him? She had no idea… this fight had really hurt her.
He swallowed, this felt awkward and frightening to him. He'd never wanted some one to like him as much as he wanted Ausi to like him right now!
He inched forward before hesitating.. "Ausi.." His mouth felt dry. He looked away and tried to compose his thoughts. "Ausi.... I'm... I'm so sorry... I should have told you what had been troubling me and... I didn't... "
This wasn't so bad! Apologizing! And being honest... no this wasn't that hard... though the butterflies wouldn't leave his stomach.
“Fedha stop.”
She mewed and stood up, her soft blue eyes narrowing upon his form.
“Tell me, please, that what I hear is false.”
Oh she felt her body tremble at the thought of if be anything but.
“I need to know that you are only the father of our young.. not.. anyone else’s.”
She could hardly speak, she loved him so much it hurt it. Her eyes closed as she looked away from him, standing still, and cold.
He froze when she told him to stop and he felt his heart about to break. She wouldn't accept it, she was going to tell him to leave again! He started to shake her head but then what she actually said hit him.
Had... had Ivie been here? He suddenly felt furious! Ivie... how could Ivie do this to him? He thought they'd been friends! He'd made it clear he didn't love her but she was ruining his family!
"Ausi! They're not!" He breathed out, gasping for breath because he almost choked on his own words. "I swear to you.. I have lain with no other female." He started to move forward again, he wanted her warmth and her touch and he'd never wanted that before, merely tolerated it.
At his words she gazed at him again she smiled slightly. She knew it must have taken him a lot to say such a thing to her, he wasn’t the type to be so loving. Her ears pinned backwards as she moved herself closer to him and spoke out, nuzzling his neck.
“All because of you, I haven’t slept in so long and when I do I dream, dream of drowning in the ocean…longing for the shore, where I can lay my head down inside these arms of yours..”
as a zombie (8:52:00 PM): He pushed into her hard, wanting to feel her close to him once again. How much had he taken for granted? He nuzzled his face into her neck, shutting his eyes. "And I have slepy for too long my love.." He whispered, swallowing again.
He could be romantic, loving. Caring. He could do it, and it wasn't making him die. Why had he been such an a** for so long? "Ausi I am so sorry.." He whispered again, licking at her ears and face.
She smiled at him and moved her nose to nuzzle against his as she smiled at him sweetly and spoke out.
“I am too.”
At that she rested herself against him and purred deeply, sitting.
“Fedha… lets stay here tonight, alright? By the sea… we can enjoy the tide together.”
Oh how her heart rang with happiness. She trusted him and trusted his words and knew that he would never wrong her. Fedha was hers as she was his, always.
Stay with me forever.." He whispered in response, slowly sitting and pressing close to her, his eyes still shut as he took in her scent and her being. He'd been gone too long.
