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Posted: Fri Nov 28, 2008 3:23 pm
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Hifadhi wandered, alone for once, which was odd. But lonliness was a feeling that was growing on the old lion, more than he had ever felt it in his entire life. He missed his old friends, and so many of them were gone now. He was only an old man, useless to the rest of the pride, and barely able to help Ngao now. Useless. He had always wanted to die before this happened to him. He had hoped he would. No respectable Captain of the guard should have lived to be his age.
And yet... before, it hadn't seemed so bad. Before everything that had happened, all the lions who had died... Ukweli's death had hit him harder than he ever wanted to admit. Especially not to the others. It was a weakness he could not a stand. A weakness he would have only ever admitted to his old friend. Things weren't the same, they never would be, and he had thought that perhaps he would have been used to all the change by now. But stubborness for him had always resounded as his resistance to change in general.
He was suprised when he spotted Peke, alone under the tree. He thought the boy asleep at first, but no... it didn't look that way. The boy he had thought he would die saving... almost wished he had.
"Peke?" He asked, blinking with concern as he saw the cub, "Are you alright?"
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Posted: Fri Nov 28, 2008 9:31 pm
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Posted: Fri Nov 28, 2008 10:32 pm
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Hifadhi saw him stand, and knew instantly that it was odd. This was not the Peke he knew from before... no, the Peke he knew had been difiant enough to run off when he told him quite blatently not too... so it felt distinctly odd to the old lion for the cub to suddenly act in this manner. He wasn't sure he liked it, even though he had always encouraged obediance... it merely bewildered him.
The elder tilted his head as he saw Peke yawn and nod. Bored, uninterested... yet not defiant, as he remembered. Not at all, "You seem tired. I'm sorry, were you trying to sleep?" Though he wondered how the boy could sleep at all after losing his sister. Not well, he'd imagine.
He stepped forward, stubborn and old as always, he was hardly afraid of what a cub thought of his intrusion. Sometimes one needed a... gentle push into revealing what was really on their mind, "If you like, perhaps you can talk to me about what you have on your mind? I may be old, but my hearing is as good as ever."
Though who knew how long that would last at his age.
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Posted: Mon Dec 01, 2008 8:30 pm
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Posted: Tue Dec 02, 2008 10:43 am
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Hifadhi sighed, watching Peke as he spoke. So much loss for one so young... And he blamed himself for what had happened to Peke's sister in part already. She had been his to protect, and he had failed in his mission. Useless old man. He should have known better than to expect he could do anything right now. He hadn't even been able to save Ukweli... His oldest, and really, only, remaining friend who had still breathed.
"No... I guess talking never really solved much of anything, did it?" He said, knowing that lying to the cub wouldn't do any good. Besides, he probably wouldn't have anyway. Lying to the children had only ever hurt them. "You can talk about your feelings, or try to see what's different, or damn the world and curse it for leaving you behind... but it doesn't do any good. And you want it to get better, but it doesn't."
It never did. So much idiocy in the world. Loss was something that could never be made up for. And Hifadhi had lost plenty over the years. He had outlived his mate, his siblings, his children, his friends... and nearly Ngao too. Something he would not have been able to bear.
"You think the world should stop. But for some reason it keeps going on... I never could figure that one out. Feels like everything should have ended when they did." He glanced at Peke and sighed, "I'm sorry. About your sister. I know you must miss her... and I know that instead of getting time to be sad, you got a whack of responsibility you don't want instead." A lot like Ukweli, when he had first gotten his visions... Hifadhi had never been jealous of the responsibilty that came with that job.
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Posted: Thu Dec 04, 2008 8:54 pm
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Posted: Sat Dec 06, 2008 8:37 pm
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Hifadhi was suprised at the maturity of the young cub he spoke too. But he supposed that when one had faced so much loss in so short a time period, one was bound to gain inner wisdom that might not have been accepted. But... the fact that Peke didn't blame him when Hifadhi still blamed himself was something else altogether.
"Thank you, Peke." Hifadhi told him, looking down, "Perhaps I needed to hear that. And I'm glad that you don't blame yourself either. You shouldn't. As you said... it is no one's fault. And even things that perhaps have reasons... eventually, payback does come around. The world balances out..." and it had damn well better after what had happened to Ukweli, or Hifadhi didn't know if he would be able to forgive the world he lived in.
He smiled, his lips twitching a little as he looked at the cub, "If it helps at all, Ukweli told me the same thing, back when he found out that he was a seer. I was just little then, and he wasn't much older. He didn't like it, but he accepted it, and over time, he started to like what he did, because it helped the pride and those he cared about. Perhaps it will be the same for you some day? Maybe not now, or tomorrow, or the day after, but maybe some day, things will be better." He hoped it would. Responsibility had always been something that Hifadhi sought out for himself. He wasn't much good at not accepting his duties.
He was worse at shrugging them off.
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Posted: Sat Dec 06, 2008 10:05 pm
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Posted: Sun Dec 07, 2008 11:31 am
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Posted: Fri Dec 12, 2008 10:01 pm
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Posted: Sat Dec 13, 2008 3:01 pm
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Hifadhi sighed. He almost missed when Peke had been more abrasive... at least then he had known what to do about it. Yell, take a stand, be a strong Captain like he always had been. Talking to the aftermath of a boy who had lost so much... He wasn't any good at that. Too honest for it. Even comforting Ngao... even dealing with his own problems, no good.
"If you ever feel like you want to make a big fuss about it, you come to me. I won't hassel you about it." Hifadhi told him, sighing, "You're a good kid. Don't forget that."
He stood up and watched Peke leave, nodding his head a little, "Try to have a good nap..." He almost wanted the boy to snap. To yell like he would have before anything had happened.
Then he walked in the other direction, knowing Peke would be fine... or at the very least, he would arrive back home safely. Whether or not he would actually be fine or not, he didn't know.
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