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 Posted: Sun Jun 06, 2010 10:04 pm
Nyoka was quite the mother now. Her children were growing...without her. Those emerald eyes stared them down... as she turned away to greet her mate. Pacing herself with new strength and lifting her head to greet him. She... like many females had secrets.. but it seemed like hers were far worse than a black hole could ever hold. The nanny would come soon to pick them up out of the den.. whether or not she did wasn't nyoka's business as long as they weren't in her den for too long.
The universe was just about the size of her deceit.. but with Nanashi. One of her own kind.. she thought just maybe.. She could forget all of what was in the past and they could dominate together. Unlike Linje. Whom was pathetic in her eyes and she used him just as much as any other male she seduced.
Thoughs salmon eyes.. she smirked. It was a hard situation to be with the ONE SHE REALLY loved in the same place but now.. he was back to his own.. and his children were also moved to another den. A royal den still but she could watch them from any point at that den.. Every night she would feel Dysi's touch.. but at the same time she was torn with nanashi's embrace. It was hard.. but nanashi did not kill her children.. nor rushed the male away. HE HAD to take care of these cubs. They were his.. but. When he found out they were not.. Nyoka's problems heightened. Her stress level went out of the roof but Nanashi was there.. never once turning the cold shoulder like Dysi had. Then the fact that he was the one making sure her kids were safe with the Nanny and also being there when she refused to see her own children. Them, having to take milk for Aija the nanny to survive.. But with the days.. Nanashi had become so close to her.
And she smiled.. almost fakely but she had to convince herself. If this was a better life. She must stay with it.. and not go for a male whom always left her hanging at many times.. Nanashi. Did not.. and unlike Mana, she grew an attachment to him... an attraction. He was tall.. dark.. and strong. Or so it seemed.. and his family became even more useful. Especially his... delusional brother whom did everything she said without fail.
Such a fine male.. she had caught in her web and this was alright. Showing him even when Dysi was around that Nanashi was her number one.. until the sun went down.. and the very few moments alone she had with Dysi..Agony.. that she couldnt be with him; though it was easier to decide between them when he gave her the cold shoulder but Nanashi was best.. and he was a purebred. One of her kind.. Her ears went low to her head.
Dysi refused to speak with her.. and it was easier for the decision to be made. Her kids.. she found that. They were still hers.. and they couldn't stay WITHOUT their mother for that long.. and have to be 'adopted' by another. What would the pride think? Her stresses were absorbing her.. and she found her way down to the spring under the crater. Their was an easy access from her den as she looked down in to the water..
Seeing her reflection. She had spent a brief moment with her cubs. Her two girls.. one being from Dysi's litter before hers whom she grown to accept as her own. Then Bian. Whom also was still a cub.. to accept them in to their family....
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Posted: Thu Nov 04, 2010 7:15 pm
Nanashi was enjoying this new way of life, this...pride-based way of life. He no longer needed to worry over his sister, and his brothers, where they were and if they were safe. He knew that within the walls of the pride, that they would be fine. Except...now he had new worries to worry for. He had Nyoka, the sweet and gentle cheetah who had somehow wormed her way into his heart which he had thought long since buried. A new mother, she had birthed cubs which needed her, but she had been reluctant to accept.
He knew they were not his, they were half-leopards after-all but he could not see them waste away while Nyoka was left to sort out her mind, so he had taken to checking in on them, making sure they were safe, like he had once been needed to do for his siblings in the rogue lands. He did care for the runty cubs, but only because they were Nyokas. If they had been others, he would have been barely interested in their welfare. He did like cubs, but he was not one to fuss over those he had no responsibility for.
He had been out to check the cubs, and had returned to their den, the one which he shared with his mate – how odd to think of someone with such a fond term like mate- and had greeted Nyoka softly. She hadn't seemed to really take notice of him, caught up in her own thoughts. He frowned a little, settling himself in the den but he rose to his feet once more when she left the den. He moved to follow her, before he hesitated, wondering if it was her wish that he follow her. He paused for a moment by the mouth of the den, staring down at her as she crossed to the spring.
He could not leave her on her own, what if she needed someone to speak with? He did not wish for her to seek out that leopard Dysi for company, when she should return to her mate for comfort. He set off towards the spring as well, stopping a few feet behind her, and waited for her to acknowledge him. He would not speak, or pester her for answers, he just wanted her to know that he was there, if she needed to speak.
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Posted: Fri Nov 05, 2010 2:29 am
She was out of it- not herself. Something was drained out of her and her world was falling apart and thats not what she could let happen. Regroup. Not seeing nor feeling Dysi around anywhere. Even with greeting her mate it felt like a void and she didn't much pay attention.. as if she wasn't really there. Walking below.. and when she got there- her eyes absorbed in looking down at a reflection she didn't see whom she always thought she was.
Her tail had swung deadlike..then stopped. Which was rare.. for her tail seemed to have a mind of its own many times before. Looking down and dull for the moment til she finally heard the steps that signified her mate. The only way down here was through their den. The private spring. She slightly moved her head to the side. Not directly looking at him. Eyes blank for the most part- this had made her fall in to an emotion she never knew of. Depression.
"Yes?" She questioned.. and let it ring before looking back out in to the rocky debts that was uniquely put under the pride. Underground felt like a surreal place.. and she felt like this would be where she could hide.
She was different and not herself.. and that wasn't something she could show her pride. But Nanashi ... was lucky.
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Posted: Thu Nov 18, 2010 2:17 pm
Nanashi's heart felt like it had frozen within his chest at the sight of his beloved – he still was not used to that term! - mate's eyes so dull and almost cold, as if she was too tired to feel anything anymore. His face twisted into a worried frown, eyes gentle and almost sad as he moved a little further towards her.
“I just wanted to see if you were alright,” he said, in response to her question, keeping his posture relaxed so that she did not feel threatened by his approach. He moved to stand beside her, almost towering over her before he lowered himself to a sitting position beside her. “I have been worried for you, m'lady,” He confessed lightly, not looking at her and instead peering into the spring before them. M'lady, instead of love or dear, it seemeed to make more sense, afterall, she was HIS Boss Lady to his Boss, so why not call her what she is, exactly what she means to him? His voice echoed, despite it's quite sound and he wondered if she would take his worry as an insult or a compliment.
“You know you can always talk to me, if you need to talk at all.”
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Posted: Tue Nov 23, 2010 10:51 pm
She had been on a depression streak and it didn't surprise her when Nanashi plainly announced it. Her eyes went to seek his.. and those orbs that were extremely regretful..Almost hopeless. "I have done wrong.. " Starring at him with a giving up sigh.
"I have done my sins.. and they feel as though they had become a bigger burden than I had thought. But even that.. somehow I feel.. oddly refreshed.. hurt. But. Refreshed. I have to keep my head straight but I feel. Well. Not myself." Because Dysi is no longer here.. nor talking to me. It is what I deserve. Her head was arguing with her other thoughts but she felt light-stepped.. even over it all. Except well for her..children that made her life a living hell. "I feel torn.. but I know what I feel and what I must do." Digging in her chest for that smile that she felt..
"I think I have grown.. apart of the ideals I started out with.." Then she slowly side stepped closer to him and leaned her shoulder on his. Looking in to the water.. "But oddly enough, I think it is a good thing." Then she leaned her head back to look up at him. "Nanashi..." Her green eyes shown over to his crystal blue ones.. leaning even more in to him and nuzzled under his chin softly.
"My mate." She stated.. almost so seriously that her eyes became..almost. Genuine.. as if finally. She were telling the truth even if it was hard for her to say it. "You are no longer just use..for me." Admitting this was like telling a big secret. Even if it could possibly get her in trouble- what, had she used him til now? He had to have known. "But now something more. I hope.. you can understand what I'm going through.. I never.. thought I'd.. have a family in grasp of my paws..." She whispered but surely he could hear her murmur. "I don't know how ...to act."
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Posted: Sun Nov 28, 2010 3:15 am
Nanashi's worry for his mate only grew stronger as she seemed to stare up at him, almost hopelessly. There was a weight in his chest, as if her burden was his to bear and not hers at all, though he didn't know exactly what he could do that would help her. He moved closer, and hoped that it was not a mistake, careful to position himself firmly beside her.
“Sometimes, we need hardship and pain so that we can truly find ourselves and understand who we are,” he said calmly, careful not to react or appear pitying in his actions, as he knew she was upset. He nuzzled her back as she moved closer to him, nuzzling under his chin. The way she said his name, like a whisper that would haunt him, made him want to smile and his heart nearly skipped a beat at 'my mate'.
However, it nearly stopped altogether at her next words. No longer just a use. Did that mean that previously, that he had been? How long had he been but a use to her, he frowned heavily but found he could not stay mad at her. He had half know, half assumed that perhaps he did not hold her whole heart and he had been content- because if he had not known, then there was no hurt for him that he could take personally. But now...now he was more than a use? He listened as she continued to speak. He smiled finally, almost sadly, as she stopped speaking. A family. He had a family but it was not the one he wanted, as it did not hold her firmly as his, as part of his family completely. “You should act only as yourself, only as you wish to act, and I – as both your mate, and as your family – will love you no matter what those acts are like.” He covered her paw with his, careful to place a gentle pressure. “It is not really a way to act at all, my mate,” the words slipped out, a soft murmur in her ear as he rested a cheek against hers, “it is being yourself, and allowing me to love you for every part of you.”
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Posted: Mon Nov 29, 2010 6:34 am
(( Songs -
Nanashi or Dysi -[ Bruno mars Grenade ]
Dysi or Nanashi - [ Nothing on you ]
Nyoka to Nanashi - [ Must stickwhityou ]
Dysi and nyoka - [ Lie about us ] ))
Act. She acted so well, and fooled so much and that was the biggest lie that she had created and that mounted everything she built this place out of. The lie consumed her and she, herself even believed it. But the lies felt like they were burning off as she seemed to have a better grasp at handling - not acknowledging her children. Except for her son. Whom she couldn't look away from him since he looked EXACTLY like her. The girl was cute and full of life and curiosity but now she had found a nanny to hold that burden instead of putting it in Nanashi's face. Yes. Things in the den were better now.. but the burdens were still there. Likewise when Dysi left because those children that she finally birthed.. were not his.
Leaving her stranded got her to thinking and she didn't want to be 'left' again and again. Feeling the pain over and over.. and with his children she had to hold on to.. to even feel his presence.. no. She had to find a way to balance out these feelings.. and she felt like she finally had after days in the den without speaking to anyone and dwelling in silence.. and darkness. Nanashi- was what she had hoped for. He even surpassed his uses! Now she was coming to realize this. Finally. When her heart was torn out.. and now just to get it fixed by him. But not the him she had expect.. Long and behold it was Nanashi.
"It seems like so." After his words came out, it felt so true. One had to feel pain to know what love is. To know one's soul and life. The real selves that had gotten lost.. death comes in rebirth she supposed. Closing her eyes and warping in the past events of her life.. and how confused she was and how the life she had come to known to her was now making her different and stronger though painful. It was worth the tears put in to it. Since Dysi left, things were more quiet and the rumors had circulated enough to now die down..
Even when Dysi was in their den. Nanashi didn't stir it in front of her. The occasional stares and when she said they were Dysi's he still stayed beside her. Then the news that they weren't.. he was still there. After his nuzzles.. and the caressing of sweet and innocent nuzzling. The feeling of longing for what he spoke of. 'Not acting.' Something unheard of by herself. Acting was all she knew.. she looked up at him again. A gaze in fact. She was looking for her future in his eyes.. unlike something she had done before. This time.. from what she gathered up and even if he was in the back burner..she found that. He was still.. by her side. Like the loyal figure she wanted of him, and desired him as. As herself. Did she even know how to do that anymore? Whom she really was? She was just now figuring this out and by him leading her out of her 'fur' so to say. Love. He used the word and he treated it kindly.. How one grew far from what they believed themselves to be.
"Allowing you to love me?" It seemed foreign. She demanded others love, respect and worship the ground she walked on. No less. But. Allowing them to love all of her.. the problem was showing them all of it. The real one- was the one in front of him and how she became to be now that the pride had depended on her.. even with Dysi gone and how they. The citizens. Needed her. To keep this alive.. and along side a male whom she almost saw as her equal now that they reigned together. As co-owners. Is what she thought it to be. When did it change to 'mates'? She couldn't remember. Maybe when she found herself wanting desperately to forget Dysi? And found refuge in Nanashi?
"Loving every part even if its as dangerous as the next? Dear Nanashi, that would be a plague for you to endure such a feat." When he placed his paw over hers.. It seemed to give her a different reaction. Warmth yet cold trickling down her spine.. A different and renewed feeling.
Nipping at his neck fur.
"How you say mate, you almost make me believe it. I say it as- hopefully.." Honestly speaking. "All this time I had been putting up a front. You should know.. as it is needed to be, in leadership. Now with a 'mate'... a real one. Not some show....But acting is what I was brought up to have known." Padding her tail and laying it across his long tail. Caressing it softly for it did have a mind of its own. "I want to start over. This time.. with you. Really.. with you. As I said.. this love you seek.. is dangerous. But... maybe. You can help me?" Eyes slitted as she lowered her face away, then leaning on his chest fully. Then lifting his head up with her muzzle.. Purring. Alone time is what they finally needed now. So she could tell him this in secret.
Always her voice was soft. Quiet. In charge.
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Posted: Sun Mar 27, 2011 11:37 pm
Nanashi knew she was struggling with the idea of allowing him to see all of her, all of personality - all of her faults, and loving her no matter what part of her she showed him. He could wait. He would be patient, while she figured out what she wanted, and allowed him to want that with her. He had fallen in love with the proud female who had stood so strong and so firm, despite all opposition. He felt honoured to be able to stand beside her, to shelter her - to love her, even if he had not always been her first choice.
"Then infect me, endanger me," he told her, gently, when she spoke of a plague. "I want all of you, my love. I want to know you and love every part of who you are - simply because it's part of you and I already know that I love you. Dangerous or not."
His heart lodged in his throat at her next words, lowering his head to nuzzle her lovingly as she lent against his chest. She wanted to try. She wanted to make this real. She wanted to actually be with him, not a mask. "I want that too," he admitted, gently. "I will give you everything and anything you need. I will help you every step of the way." He licked her cheek lovingly, thrilled that she was willing to try - that she wanted this too.
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Posted: Mon Jun 27, 2011 6:43 pm
“My habits are not that easy to break. Some parts are more dangerous and deceiving than others…” She admitted with a dark sense of those words. “These beliefs I have are so deep… like wounds inside me that won’t heal. I want to change- I want to believe. It’s so hard to…” Ears went down. Feeling his nuzzles and caresses. He made her feel so warm inside from the cold she made herself out to be. The rumors, she thought tainted her image but he was still here! It mesmerized her how loyalty became love… in some animals. She looked up, letting her paw graze his face and feel the features of the more slender beast, not thicker furred than Dysi. So unfaithful she was, when she walked out of their den when Dysi was around… Nana knew where she was going and though it hurt to betray him. Her adorations and eyes lied somewhere else. No matter how much she lied- Nanashi. How foolish can love make one out to be? Others would have trifled with such betrayal and yet with her, Nanashi succumbed to this and loved her without fail. Now that she didn’t have anything else to pay attention to, it was all eyes on Nanashi. She would make it so they were happy even if it meant to kill over it.
“Seems like a big job, you think you can handle it?” Trying to lighten the mood, she rose to her paws and softly licked at his chin and neck. Teasing him with her words, as that was one tall order to fill. “So I shall let you love me- But do not say that I didn’t tell you how bad it can get. I’m not a typical cheetah and beyond that of a venomous snake, I’ll trust your words- I just hope you do not fail yourself in your endeavor. I know you are the only one who can save me. Take care of me as I will pray that the Gods will grant you patience with me. I'm a lot to handle~“ Her sly, mysterious tone and that of teasing yet again. Though she knew he was the only one who can save her from herself, it was still half of what she truly felt. He was too kind, too forgiving and how could he handle a being like her? Well. Truly he was the only one whom saw her kindness and love when it was only he whom was around. Others speak their talk and taint her more with each passing day… Have the rumors become true?
"You are my only family...." Believing she was the only one of her sisters to have made it alive. "So please forgive me- I'm still learning to cope my love but I assure you I will make everything right again..." Licking at the spring before she turned tail and slowly started to walk towards the den they called theirs. She remembered when it was only her and Enzi. Now, it blossomed, she was so proud yet...she couldn't help but feel different about it all. Maybe with time she will accept her own wishes and change everything and reflect it by the standards she thought Nanashi had. He will be the pride and behind him, she will make it happen.
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Posted: Fri Aug 05, 2011 7:22 pm
“I don't expect miracles, my love,” he whispered to her gently. “We will take it a day at a time, one change at a time. You don't need to turn your back on all that you are but if we are to be together, if we are to start a family of our own, then danger cannot be within you.” Danger and deception could destroy their family if she let it grow too far, if she let them be without check, but Nanashi didn't need to the change herself completely. He loved who she was, but she couldn't deceive, she couldn't lie and let them fall into danger if she truly wanted this.
Nanashi chuckled lightly at her words. “I think I can handle it,” he told her, with a wry smile, his eyes portraying only love towards her. “The gods don't need to grant me patience, my love for you is all the patience and support I need to accept you for who you are. For what you are.” He pressed his cheek to hers lovingly. “And what you are is amazing.”
He watched her move up to their den, waiting a moment to peer into the waters of the spring. Thinking. A family. For so long, It was simply himself and his siblings, making their way as they could through the world and now he had gained another. A lover. A mate. Someone who would be there for him. He knew she doubted whether this could survive, thought herself dangerous to him, but he didn't mind the danger if it meant that she was his. He glanced up, and moved to follow her. Finding her in the den, he curled himself around her. Whispering gently, he rested his chin atop hers, covering – protecting – her with his larger form, “You alone don't need to make everything right anymore, my love, we will make it right – we will always stand together, as a family -our family.”
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Posted: Fri Sep 02, 2011 12:44 pm
As he let his body drape over hers, feeling him on top of her, she leaned back in to him and rubbed the back of her head along his neck. For such a short cheetahess, she still became the reigning power of this pride. She made this pride. From her own two paws, gathering, collecting, instilling what was now the pride's main families. Adding him on board, unlike Mana, she was attracted to Nanashi and as another family- he brought upon more strength to the pride. She could only thank him, and throughout her en devours thus far, he had been there- always there.
"It's a task." Leaning her upper body on him as she lifted her paw to grace his cheek above her. "To have someone love me this way- to have want the same things I want. I have not found and yet I find it in you.. I brisk the memories of when I brought you here... and still you have not fled from the dangers. I commend you, love... you are rightfully now the leader of this pride- with your strength- our strength.. it will be great.. For a while I thought I would have to do it all alone. I'm...happy..." Her voice was broken almost.. knowing full well that she wouldn't be able to give him her whole- as Dysi had her heart. But this she knew, was what she wanted- if only Dysi would have been like this.. want the same things.. Had they grown that far apart? No. He wouldn't betray her like she was betraying him.. how would he react to know she picked a leader that wasn't him. Ears pinned back.
"I didn't expect you. Yet I got you.. I am not worthy of this." Her voice so soft as she lowered her head. Eyeing behind her, then hid her face away. This will be hard for the both of them.. why was she falling for someone! Didn't her heart already belong to Dysi! Tonight... she will forget dysi. Even for just one moment, to be happy for once.. since so long..
"My king. You will be a great king..Tonight my love. I give you soully.. tonight I am yours."
When the night was young- she would forget the past and look forward to her life.. this new life that was promised to her, alongside someone with the same dream..
La fin
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