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Xenos was walking up the other end of the bridge, Rhys perched on his arm. He'd just been out with his eagle, letting the bird fly as he watched and studied. A smile crossed his face as he walked on the bridge. It had been here last year that he had found Rhys, making this place special to him. Looking up, Xenos was startled by the sight of Hikari with Okami and Crahi. His housemate seemed to be distraught and that worried him. "Hikari? Are you alright?" He asked as he came over. Rhys cawed lightly as he moved from Xenos' arm to his shoulder.

Xenos couldn't figure out why finding her mother would upset her so much. Quietly he took the offered book and looked on the open page for the woman. As he read he understood more why Hikari was so upset. To have that power locked inside of you, the power that almost destroyed an entire city and know that your mother had released it....it couldn't be easy. "You can bend it and twist it...you can use it and abuse it...but even God can not change the truth." Xenos half muttered as he finished reading. Latly he found himself quoting things when he couldn't find the right words himself. "Have you wrote your uncle about this yet?" He asked looking back up at Hikari as he closed the book. He didn't like seeing his yearmate this upset. It bothered him alot actually.

"But he might have some answers for you. I still believe that there was nothing wrong with you wanting to know. I wish you could talk to her, maybe....maybe it'd help you." Xenos said his voice realtivly calm as he watched Hikari pet Okami. "I don't think your uncle will understand. He might be upset, but he probably was scared of seeing you this upset. Taking the book is the least of the problems here." He continued. Granted Xenos didn't know Eriol that well, but it seemed to him that the book wouldn't be as much of a concern for the older wizard. Right now he wished he could hit a button that would make things better for Hikari but knew that even in the magic world that kind of thing didn't exsist.

Xenos smiled softly at her, reaching out to brush some of her hair behind her ear. Latly he'd been doing things like that without thinking. Moving to adjust his glasses, Xenos didn't let his smile falter. "Of course I'll help you. I was going to help you research her but you got ahead of me on that. Would you like to go now, or do you want to stay out her and relax a little?" He asked lightly figuring the book. Why did moments of other's pain always spark a bit of guilt in him? Here was one of his closest friends calming after finding her real mother and all he did was argue with his. He'd offer his mother up to Hikari as a replacement but doubted his father would take that well. Xenos chuckled lightly when Rhys nipped at his ear bringing the pale boy back into the present.

Xenos was a little surprised when he felt Hikari's hand in his. Squeezing it lightly in a reassuring way, he smiled at her again. "Alright then. Let's get going. The soonier we get that letter wrote the better." Xenos said as he started to lead the way, still holding Hikari's hand.

Where am I? Sitting on the rail half way down the covered bridge
Who am I with? My thoughts
What's my mood? Barely holding it in
Who/What's on my mind? Why?
What do I want? To hide and to not think for a bit

((just so peeps know when they read this I'm setting this post up at night))

The first thing that struck him once he was out of the bridge was the cool night air. It stung his face, his eyes and made him shiver. Although it was still summer the air coming up off of the lake and through the ravine seemed more like winter. But the albino didn't care. Standing there, suspending over what looked like a void of swirly black below him with the cold light of the moon in the inky sky above....he could almost imagine himself just vanishing. But even to him he knew how much he stood out in this place. Hoping up to sit on the edge with his back facing the outside Xenos took his glasses off setting them gently on the rail. Grasping the wood he closed his eyes tiliting back till he was leaning out only his legs and hands holding him up.

This wasn't like anything he'd ever delt with before. Why did it have to be so hard? Why did it have to be now of all times? It'd almost been six years now but still he got so stupidly emotional around this time. What was it about the professor that made him want to spill everything? Right now he felt stupid and a mix of far too old and far too young for this. But he could only guess this was life right? That's how it was...how it would always be. Part of him wondered what had happened after he left. Part of him hoped Dante would come looking for him. Most of him was terrified that he would. Opening his eyes, the crimsion colored gaze looked up towards the moon, unable to see it but not caring. Right now he just wanted to cry.

Where am I? On the rail of the coverd bridge half way down.
Who am I with? ....Zamir
What's my mood? There's that shattering feeling again
Who/What's on my mind? Screw you too universe
What do I want? Scream

Xenos jumped only slightly when he heard Zamir's voice. He tilted his head to look at him even though without his glasses he couldn't. "Yeah...completely...absolutely wonderful." Xenos gave him a watery smile before chuckling lightly. "At least that's what I would like you to believe. But sadly you know me too well." He shifted lightly but he didn't come down nor did he flee. It wasn't a good night for him. There wasn't a point in running now unless he chose to go run into the forest....might not be a bad idea.