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Posted: Fri Jul 13, 2012 1:30 am
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The day was bright, clear, and it seemed to be mocking Darakhshan. Why was it that on the days she felt the worst, the weather would be the best? She had very few sunny days that she enjoyed. It was just so empty in the den. Her older siblings were everywhere, some of them still in the den with father and herself, others off with their own families. But the den was short one banu, the old bay banu. Yes, her father had named a new baybanu after Dara's mother died, but it did not make things right.
They might have two other mothers, but they were not HER mother by birth, the one that had died because of herself and her litter. Dara could not stand the thought that she was the cause, but she just knew it in her heart. She could not bring herself to blame any of the other cubs in her litter, especially not her twin, but that just left herself to take the blame. So it must be Dara's fault, or so the lioness was convinced. It was an old train of thought but she always seemed to come back to it. She wondered sometimes if her siblings were right that it was not her fault, but she just could not seem to let that thought stick.
So here she was yet again, looking around the communal area of the pride and thinking herself an awful daughter, banu, and lioness. She just could not help the way she felt in her heart. The white and blue lioness did hope her twin did not feel this way as well. Or any of their other siblings from the litter. Her shoulders should bare it all, in her opinion. The others should not worry themselves over it. It was illogical, but for some reason it made sense to the lioness all the more so as she had grown older. Perhaps it was the fact that she had had so long to convince herself of how right it was.
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Posted: Fri Jul 13, 2012 10:47 am
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Rosha'Nasrin was still adjusting to life without her family. Obadias and his banus had made it so much easier by giving her things to do in the den. She had been helping with hunting, with the cubs, and even with rearranging the den the few times it was done. The last batch of cubs was all grown up now, though, so things were a bit less hectic. The majority of the leopons were off to other dens. Some of the banus had found Pads, the Pads had made their own dens and found other hybrid banus. Rosha was left a bit lonely without them around as much.
She had loved the hybrids so much. The leopons had been so cute. She had rather wished she could have kept them as cubs forever, but they had to grow up eventually. Now she had to find something else to occupy her time. The hunting wasn't enough to take up all their time, not with three banus and herself. Oba had actually told her to start looking for a Pad more actively, so that she could be happy. He seemed to think that she would not do it on her own, and he was probably right. She had been getting rather comfortable with the idea of just playing as if she was Oba's daughter and not getting a Pad.
That was not allowed, though. She had to find a Pad of her own. Not that Oba would kick her out or wanted rid of her. Oba just insisted she be happy, and knew that would require a Pad for her. Rosha was not the type of lioness that wanted to be alone for the rest of her life, but things were so complicated since her family had been wiped out by that disease. She just found it easier to hide from everyone than look for a Pad. Of course, Oba would not look for one for her. He wanted HER to pick out a Pad and tell him whom it was so he could make the arrangements. That way she would be happy.
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Posted: Fri Jul 13, 2012 11:18 am
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Dara was just about to find a nice spot to settle down and watch everyone else, when she noticed the very bright lioness with the intricate markings. She had seen some interesting markings in the pride, but this female was something else! She did not think she had seen anyone else in the pride with the same combination of bright fur and nearly clashing markings. It nearly hurt her eyes to look at the other banu, but that just made her curious as to where she had come from. Dara grew up in the pride, but she did not remember this lioness.
The white and blue banu could not place a family that might have produced such a pelt either, and that bothered her. She might have been to blame for her mother's death, but Dara had made sure to learn most of the families of the pride. She could not learn the ones that were dead, but still, she knew all the living families she possibly could. She was not expected to know all the member's names or exact appearance, but even so, Dara had learned a lot about the pride's families. What general markings were in the families, what colors, whom had tied into whom. It was hard to remember everything, but she tried.
Dara abandoned her idea of watching everyone in silence to find out more about this lioness. It HAD to be someone's banu they brought in on their quest. That was the only possibility. The fact that the banu looked a bit older than Dara, and was unknown to her, left no other possibilities to the lioness' mind. She had no idea how wrong she was. This bright female had to fit in just so to Dara's mind. "Hello, I am banu Darakhshan, daughter of Pad Achal." She figured it was best not to speak of her dead mother just now.
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Posted: Sun Jul 15, 2012 6:00 pm
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Rosha headed out to the common area of the pride to see what pads were about and be a good banu so that she could find a Pad. She knew Obadias would be proud of her just for going out and making the effort. He had been worrying about her a bit, but she did not want him worried about anything regarding herself. She needed to find a Pad or two of interest and let Oba know. Then he would be happy to check out the Pads and not worry about Rosha. The bright lioness had thought about this idea a lot, and was very concerned about both the fact that she needed a Pad of her own, and that Oba might be worried.
Rosha had noticed the white and blue lioness walking out from the direction of one of the other dens, but really had not paid much attention to her. It was another banu, perhaps competition for the Pads, perhaps not, but it did not really matter to Rosha. She was convinced that she would find a good Pad eventually no matter what. Between how well Oba and his banus said she did with the cubs and the fact that her family had not been related to any of the others in the pride, she was sure to get a Pad.
She was a little startled with she heard herself being hailed. When had the white lioness gotten so close to Rosha? She had not been paying attention if she was so easily startled. "Hello... I am Banu Rosha'Nasrin... Daughter of... sorry temporary Banu of Pad Obadias." Rosha hoped the other banu would not think badly of the slip up. "It is a pleasure to meet you, Banu Darakhshan... I noticed you did not mention your mother's name..." Rosha looked around to make sure nobody else was listening to their conversation. "Is she dead? I am sorry to ask, but my family is as well."
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Posted: Tue Jul 24, 2012 5:32 pm
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Dara was not expecting the reply that she got from the other lioness. She had started to give a Daughter of introduction which meant she was born in pride, and not only that the lioness had caught on to Dara's mother being dead. Crap, she really had to be less obvious about that so her father did not get angry with her. She was supposed to be a good banu and angering her father in anyway was not being a good banu. The white lioness nearly missed the last part of the other lioness' comment, the part with the apology and the confession. Thankfully, she caught this and it perked her up a little. Perhaps the other lioness only asked because of her own loss?
Dara tried not to show any of her emotions on her face even as her mind worked at lightning speed. She did not want anyone to think her anything but a good banu, who was not nosy, or misbehaved, or overemotional. "Actually, yes she has passed on... I should have mentioned her anyway, but I do hope you will forgive me. I am sorry to hear about your family... If I may, it was everyone?" She was not sure if she should ask such a question, but the lioness had not given the names of her parents at all, so this had to be something very important.
Dara also wondered at the lioness being in Obadias' care. Oba was from a well known line, and he certainly did not look anything like this lioness. If it was only a temporary arrangement with Oba, then he was family... or perhaps only acting as it, for this lioness certainly looked NOTHING like that family. Rosha was as bright as Oba's family was dark, and those scroll markings did not belong in Tarq's line. Dara had been raised in the pride, though, so this lioness' family would have had to been dead a little while for her not to know them. She could not even remember anyone saying about it.
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Posted: Thu Jul 26, 2012 10:36 am
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Posted: Mon Jul 30, 2012 10:43 am
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Dara felt awful for the other lioness. This banu had lost everything, not just her mother like Dara. Dara could not imagine loosing her father or her siblings. How hard would it be when she did lose them one at a time? It must have been much harder to lose them all at once. How could Dara's situation really even compare? Yes, she had lost her mother, but she never knew her mother before it happened. She only knew what she looked like by the descriptions her relatives gave. The only others Dara had lost were those that did not come home with their father. That just was not the same, though.
Her siblings that had stayed with their uncle had chosen to live outside the pride. They were not dead, and they could, if they wanted, come into the pride at a later time. It was very unlikely that they would, even if Dara did wish her twin would do so, but there was always that chance and the knowledge that they were alive and well the last she had seen them. Rosha did not have that comfort. She KNEW her family was dead. She could not just pretend they were not or live in ignorance of whether or not she was wrong, like Dara did. This lioness was forced to face the truth every day and still go on.
Dara wondered how she did it. How did this lioness go on with everyday knowing she had lost her family? And to be with a Temporary pad... Dara had not even realized such a thing existed. She had always assumed that once you left your father you stayed with that Pad forever unless you angered him somehow. But Obadias had been kind enough to take her in, even though he did not want her as his own Banu, and knowing that he was going to have to find another Pad for her. He really must think of her as family. Perhaps her male relatives and he were close? That would explain it, Dara supposed.
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Posted: Wed Sep 12, 2012 9:39 pm
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Posted: Tue Sep 18, 2012 6:56 pm
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Posted: Tue Sep 18, 2012 8:00 pm
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