Am I a Coward OR am I really That In Love?

[0ntogeny]

I have been going back and fourth in my head on this for ages now. Feedback? Please? T-T

Just comment on the journal itself instead of here I guess.

Journal Post Link HERE

 

[Fuit Gummy]

First off, let me say how happy I am
for you to have found someone like that. ^-^

Ok, in my eyes, you are not a coward. To love someone
so much that you'd push away your own desires is very admirable.
From what I read, it seems like your family knows that you want to be male,
yes? To me, putting up with people who don't want to tolerate someone else's
personal choices is brave enough.

(I am sorry that you only have
your boyfriend as support though, if you need to rant you can rant
to me. ~Is a creepy stranger~)

Anyways, I understand you want to make life easier for him, but
I'm sure he wants you to be happy too. It is not my place
to choose for you or to tell you you're wrong or right. o_o
If you're happy with the way things are, leave them be.
If you are not, change them.

Either way, from what I've read, it seems your boyfriend
will be there and support you all the way.

P.S.- If you're scared of losing him, talk to him about the
possible changed and express your fear to him.

Sorry if this made no sense, my English has been HORRIBLE
these past few months.

 

[Akatsuka Kun]

This is why I don't use gender pronouns, because if you feel like who ever you are then that's exactly who you are. Hormones, labels, categories be damned. You are exactly who you want to be mentally, emotionally, if not physically. I understand it makes things more difficult to even look into a mirror without crying, just remember you ARE beautiful... even if it takes some good 'ol fashioned lying to yourself to get there!

Word of warning don't rely to much on your partner because he will start to define who you are as a person, and lets say that one day your partner is gone? Where would you get your strength from? Do you see my point, anyway you are beautiful the way you are even if your body doesn't agree with a mental perspective. heart  

[0ntogeny]

Akatsuka Kun

This is why I don't use gender pronouns, because if you feel like who ever you are then that's exactly who you are. Hormones, labels, categories be damned. You are exactly who you want to be mentally, emotionally, if not physically. I understand it makes things more difficult to even look into a mirror without crying, just remember you ARE beautiful... even if it takes some good 'ol fashioned lying to yourself to get there!

Word of warning don't rely to much on your partner because he will start to define who you are as a person, and lets say that one day your partner is gone? Where would you get your strength from? Do you see my point, anyway you are beautiful the way you are even if your body doesn't agree with a mental perspective. heart

sorry for the crazy late response. But thank you for ypur words. I have honestly been living by this as of late so its funny yyou left this coment awhile back and I missed it. Anyhow I'm feeling much better! Thank you