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The thing about religion is you really do need to decide for yourself what you feel is right for you.

If you don't believe in god, that doesn't automatically make you an athiest. The belief that there is no god, no after life and it all ends when you die is being an athiest. Right now I would say you're more of an agnostic you just don't know if you believe in god or not. You think he might be there, but you're uncertain.

I would suggest exploring and researching the basics of a few different religions to see if there is anything out that that "clicks" with you as the answer.

Whether or not God exists is a difficult question that many people grapple with on a daily basis. I have my own personal view-points, but I think I'll keep those to myself for the moment.

The problem is that some people have a hard time believing in something they can't see or hear for themselves. Also god is portrayed differently in different portions of the bible. Sometimes he is forgiving and sometimes vengeful. He can be a kind god, or an angry god depending.

Then there is also questioning the motives of god if he does exist. A lot of people attempt to understand why things have gone in a certain direction, and usually can't come up with an answer that doesn't involve some level of self-pity or personal ego. (I'm not saying it's wrong, but a lot of times when people are asking "why" it's in direct relation to something that affects the person questioning at the time).

What boggles my mind is how many people claim to know god's will, and attempt to carry it out in contradictory manners. The crusades was pretty much just one interpritation of god vs. another. Muslims vs. chirstians.
Personally I see it this way, Jewdaism, Muslim, and Chistian religions all have the same central figure of god, just different versions of the same general story, so why do they fight and try to kill one another so often?

I would say a less winded and tagent riddled answer would be you have to be the one to decide for yourself what you do and do not believe. If you let other people tell you what to believe then it won't be as true for you as it would be if you came to a conclusion of your own based on your own personal feelings and experiences.

Truthfully, I believe that there is a God in heaven, Jesus died for man's sin and if you dont do what the bible says and accept in prayer as your saviour your going to Hell (I dont care if you say "you'll make your own way" or think that your a "pretty good person", it still wont get you into heaven, it's just not how it's done.). That's just me, I'm not here to start a big religious debate, but as a christian I will tell you that what I would do is pray. If you dont hear His still small voice comunicating back, your probably not saved or your not listening. B ut like i said, no flaming please, I'm not here to start a debate, it's just my religious opinion and what the bible says. 3nodding

you just need to find what you believe, cuase no one else can do it for you

I like to think all religions simply present us with different aspects of the same thing. That thing is given many names and identities out of which stem creation and destruction, and from which stems the world. They're all talking about one being, whether it's reality or God. Look and find what connects with you, rather than letting anyone man-handle you in to choosing. (It's your choice! Don't let anyone tell you which path is right!)