These are poems I've made over time.
They may not rhyme, but they are me.
* * *
Starring at maroon shingles,
Life slowly rocks me into a drifting silence.
Heartbeats, fatal and distant.
Awaiting for the scream at the end of my long days.
The acheing feeling of soft pain,
Is unbareable.
Drowning in my sorrowful tears,
And hearing the final stage of my dreaming failure.
Holding on to this simple hurt.
Knees bent close,
Encaseing my heavy heart.
Wrapping the very thought in my eternal grief.
You wouldn't know of the pain I feel. Don't try. Don't worry. Its a waste of your precious time. 10/06
* * *
The reminiscent scent of fading candles,
Darkened room,
Filled with the luminiscent glow of shivering roses.
Leaning down on me,
The heavy song of a poem or a gentled lullaby.
Hold me close as I feel warmth of a tightly drawn blanket,
Of laughter,
Crowding me,
Lightening me,
Singing to me softly. 10/06
* * *
Forget me not,
while I sit alone.
So close,
buit just not your priority.
Forget me not,
when I call your name with no answer.
Holding out,
until there is nothing left.
Forget me not,
when I dream of you.
The happiness once held,
starring distant.
Forget me not,
while I walk next to your house.
Waiting,
for you to make the first move.
Forget me not,
when you think of someone other than me.
Wanting,
to share a memory.
Forget me not,
when you hide your hurt.
I would,
like to comfort you.
Forget me not,
for I am still here.
Waiting,
for your love that will never come. 11/06
* * *
The old things that kept me whole,
never satisfy.
Emptiness is the only,
believable emotion.
All I can do is wait for you,
to decide if I deserve.
It isn't everything that is possible,
but its the only thing on my mind.
I can't stop,
thinking of you.
It hurts to,
but its all that I have.
It seems that,
you are my only everything.
"Unavoidable,"
is the word that comes to mind.
"Stay with me always,"
is my dream for you to say.
You hurt me,
because you don't feel the same.
I ask myself "why?,"
"why can't you understand?"
How much you hurt me,
because you don't use your actions.
I'm begging,
without words.
"Please,
make me whole again." 11/06
* * *
You mean more to me than life.
You are worth all my strife.
The crazy truth that almost makes me break down,
I can break down to you.
For you are the one that my trust is found.
In your arms are where my fake tears become true.
From your aura is my spirit,
influences of happiness.
You give me courage to go on,
full of safety for others as I shield them from my true self.
A love of knowable relation,
holding me to you.
Able to see myself from the outside,
and know you have gone through the same too.
A reason to let go,
to let go of myself and share common interests.
An excuse to be okay,
to not worry of the world.
You lift me above all others,
to be free,
to be carefree,
to be myself,
to have a reason to live.
You are my obsession,
my obsession for life.
To make you happy is my will.
To mask my pain,
for your sake.
To love,
and to be loved in return.
I trust you,
you help me be alive.
Thank you,
for helping me to strive,
for freeing me.
You are worth all my strife.
You mean more to me than life. 01/07
* * *
I don't belong.
Leave me to weep.
Don't make me hold it in.
It's the only way for me to feel.
I need to breathe,
take me away.
Don't make me sleep any longer.
I'm holding my heart still.
Don't make me surrender.
Don't put me to sleep Sweet Tears,
for if you do I won't wake.
I'm lost...
Look for me.
I'll be waiting,
crying,
longing for a lost fantasy.
I'm cold,
scared,
emotionless,
struck with sorrow and death-like sadness.
Be at my side,
hold me,
I want to cry in your arms.
"I looked for you..."
Catch my heart.
I'm falling apart.
Deep in my endless black sea.
Evenesence (To fade away)...in my warm tears. 01/07
They may not rhyme, but they are me.
* * *
Starring at maroon shingles,
Life slowly rocks me into a drifting silence.
Heartbeats, fatal and distant.
Awaiting for the scream at the end of my long days.
The acheing feeling of soft pain,
Is unbareable.
Drowning in my sorrowful tears,
And hearing the final stage of my dreaming failure.
Holding on to this simple hurt.
Knees bent close,
Encaseing my heavy heart.
Wrapping the very thought in my eternal grief.
You wouldn't know of the pain I feel. Don't try. Don't worry. Its a waste of your precious time. 10/06
* * *
The reminiscent scent of fading candles,
Darkened room,
Filled with the luminiscent glow of shivering roses.
Leaning down on me,
The heavy song of a poem or a gentled lullaby.
Hold me close as I feel warmth of a tightly drawn blanket,
Of laughter,
Crowding me,
Lightening me,
Singing to me softly. 10/06
* * *
Forget me not,
while I sit alone.
So close,
buit just not your priority.
Forget me not,
when I call your name with no answer.
Holding out,
until there is nothing left.
Forget me not,
when I dream of you.
The happiness once held,
starring distant.
Forget me not,
while I walk next to your house.
Waiting,
for you to make the first move.
Forget me not,
when you think of someone other than me.
Wanting,
to share a memory.
Forget me not,
when you hide your hurt.
I would,
like to comfort you.
Forget me not,
for I am still here.
Waiting,
for your love that will never come. 11/06
* * *
The old things that kept me whole,
never satisfy.
Emptiness is the only,
believable emotion.
All I can do is wait for you,
to decide if I deserve.
It isn't everything that is possible,
but its the only thing on my mind.
I can't stop,
thinking of you.
It hurts to,
but its all that I have.
It seems that,
you are my only everything.
"Unavoidable,"
is the word that comes to mind.
"Stay with me always,"
is my dream for you to say.
You hurt me,
because you don't feel the same.
I ask myself "why?,"
"why can't you understand?"
How much you hurt me,
because you don't use your actions.
I'm begging,
without words.
"Please,
make me whole again." 11/06
* * *
You mean more to me than life.
You are worth all my strife.
The crazy truth that almost makes me break down,
I can break down to you.
For you are the one that my trust is found.
In your arms are where my fake tears become true.
From your aura is my spirit,
influences of happiness.
You give me courage to go on,
full of safety for others as I shield them from my true self.
A love of knowable relation,
holding me to you.
Able to see myself from the outside,
and know you have gone through the same too.
A reason to let go,
to let go of myself and share common interests.
An excuse to be okay,
to not worry of the world.
You lift me above all others,
to be free,
to be carefree,
to be myself,
to have a reason to live.
You are my obsession,
my obsession for life.
To make you happy is my will.
To mask my pain,
for your sake.
To love,
and to be loved in return.
I trust you,
you help me be alive.
Thank you,
for helping me to strive,
for freeing me.
You are worth all my strife.
You mean more to me than life. 01/07
* * *
I don't belong.
Leave me to weep.
Don't make me hold it in.
It's the only way for me to feel.
I need to breathe,
take me away.
Don't make me sleep any longer.
I'm holding my heart still.
Don't make me surrender.
Don't put me to sleep Sweet Tears,
for if you do I won't wake.
I'm lost...
Look for me.
I'll be waiting,
crying,
longing for a lost fantasy.
I'm cold,
scared,
emotionless,
struck with sorrow and death-like sadness.
Be at my side,
hold me,
I want to cry in your arms.
"I looked for you..."
Catch my heart.
I'm falling apart.
Deep in my endless black sea.
Evenesence (To fade away)...in my warm tears. 01/07