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Posted: Wed Apr 25, 2007 9:42 pm
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anyways, I come home after drama (we're running south pacific) and I get upstairs and my mom and dad are sitting on my bed and they want to talk.
I see drawings and writings and an anarchist primer.
anyways, they are talking to me and I'm pissed beyond belief. So I wanted to leave. And my parents are all like "we look because we love you" and I hate that so much. My mom snoops whenever somethings out of place.
anyways the drawings were as follows:
a) a skeleton b) a skull c) a zombie d) a hanging body e) a needle in a guys arm (drawing blood, not doing drugs)
and the writings were:
a) random sporatic notes b) random angry writings c) a story dealing with a son after his mothers suicide
now one day I was angry at a lot of people, so I went into class and started writing. When I was done, I didn't think about it (i should have shredded it) I didn't realize when I was writing it (it was to get some s**t off my chest) but I set it up weird and it sounded like a suicide note. So my mom went through my (yes my notebook. I even bought it with my own money) and found it and told my dad.
well, I came out that I was Anarcho-Communist and Atheist. Funny the super christians were angrier at the Anarcho-Communist thing.
And I tried to explain it to them what it was, but my mom kept saying "thats utopia, it'll never happen"
And then my dad said:
"we're afraid you're gonna hurt somebody, we're afraid you're gonna hurt yourself. So we decided that it would be in your interest if we put you somewhere where you could get the help that you need.."
and I wanted to say: "Wait, what do you mean, what are you talking about, we decided!? My best interest?! How can you know what's my best interest is? How can you say what my best interest is? What are you trying to say, I'm crazy? When I went to your schools, I went to your churches, I went to your institutional learning facilities?! So how can you say I'm crazy."
those are lyrics from suicidal tendencies "institutionalized"
anyways, I'm gonna see a therapist next week.
discuss:
WTF, That happened to me Parents and why they suck therepy Suicidal Tendencies
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Posted: Wed Apr 25, 2007 9:45 pm
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Posted: Wed Apr 25, 2007 9:59 pm
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I try to think of it from my parents perspective, and I know if my son had these things, I'd probably flip too. But, I know that they will never do it to my brother. They do it to me and my sister. Not my brother. And its always been this way. You'd think that since I'm a twin, we might have the same tastes, but we don't. and in that, thats why I'm monitored, and not my brother. Its not like I sit upstairs and cut my wrists to HTH or TBS. Its not like I don't have friends. Its not like I don't have something to take pain out on (my brother xd ) But, it bothers me that I know they will never do any of the s**t my sister and I have gone through. Its not like I'm angry at that in particular. I'm angry because, my parents will never check it with my brother. I know things they wouldn't like to know. My brother can be sad at times (like everyone) and it has been known to me that he has thought about suicide. But in turn, I also think that everyone thinks what would it be like if I were dead or never born.
The therapist thing I realized I was stuck in.
they asked me if I should see one.
if you say no, its a cry for help if you say yes, its because you asked for it if you say maybe, its their best intrest in your best intrest.
You lose no matter what.
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Posted: Thu Apr 26, 2007 12:00 pm
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Posted: Thu Apr 26, 2007 3:47 pm
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Posted: Thu Apr 26, 2007 9:13 pm
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Posted: Fri Apr 27, 2007 6:22 pm
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Posted: Sat Aug 11, 2007 3:33 pm
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