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Sasoris_Puppet
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Posted: Tue Jul 17, 2007 @ 03:05am

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	Errr.... Ok, so I've recieved a PM from a good friend of mine who's on a trip for a bit, but she will be home soon.(Yay! I miss her sooo much.) I foundsomething inside of it that apparantly there was a major misunderstanding, and I have no clue why or how it happened... Apparantly she's thinking I'd rather be RPing with another friend of mine than her, and that isn't true nor have I ever said anything like that... I love RPing with both of them, but I'd deffinately pick her over the friend she feels replaced by any day... I mean, sure I've told her of this other frieend, but I didn't mean anything by it. Just that I was having fun RPing with her, too.. And I really don't understand why she would all of a sudden think this... It really upsets me, espedcially when I don't even know how this all started. If I had known she'd take it this way I'd certianly have not even mentioned this other person... Right now I'm a bit confused too... Does she not want me around other people or did I somehow say something that came out weird due to our language barrier... It's kinda been on my mind all day and I don't know what to do... I've told her that I don't like the other person more than her, but I wonder oif she'll understand that or it'll be all muddled up again... I really miss her terribly, so I have no clue what would have brought this up... I mean, she talks about her other online buddy and I've never thought she liked the other more than me,so what's the deal? Well, I should go now... But I just had to write that down... Muddled and confused, ~Sasoris_Puppet. heart ~

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Commented on: Tue Jul 17, 2007 @ 07:39pm


	...Why do I have the feeling that she's mad about me.....well, if this is Pain you are talkin about...... I don't know....I have this....gut feeling....

Commented on: Tue Jul 17, 2007 @ 10:31pm


	Yeah, but I don't understand/know why.... sad I think it'sok now, though.^^;;;

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Commented on: Tue Jul 17, 2007 @ 10:49pm


	It was me..... I'm sorry!!!! All I've done is mess things up for you and Pain. I'm sorry! I'm sorry!! cry

Commented on: Wed Jul 18, 2007 @ 12:12am


	Awww... You haven't done anything. It was just something being taken the wrong way or perhaps I misunderstood... But everything's ok now.

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Commented on: Wed Jul 18, 2007 @ 12:37am


	ok let us clear things up. or rather.. let me try to explain how things goed.. ok. So before I was leaving my trip danna spend lot of times at the guild RP with you Budgie. I think the main reason why I got a wierd feeling was becouse danna talked a lot about Budgie and the guild RP where I'm not really on anymore becouse I really got dropped out there.. I'm a bit selfish person at times, I think, so I started to feel a bit left out in those days a bit before I had to leave. I was not jeleous nor was I feeling Budgie was doing harm or even stealing danna. I'm not that selfish.. hmm.. it is hard to explain really since it really sounds like im jeleous.. well.. I don't mind danna having lot of other friends. Such as Budgie, maoh and others. I don't mind if she would get a life or RP with others. No. That is grate. I just felt a bit dropped off that's all but that is not anyones foult eather but my a bit overactive mind of splitpersonality what tries to convince me that all peaople are same. By this I mean.. my own mind is turning happenings against me in order to protect me from treths that don't excist yet. Now thing gets a bit more complicated but I try to explain. I have a mind split in parts. Each part live their own life and can talk to me. Thi one part wants to protect me from getting hurt again like I have been hurted in past. Abonded and left alone. Uncared and lonely. So it tries to tell me everyone is same and everyone will do abond me in time (just like symphony said once) even I do know.. or hope.. that danna don't do nothing like that to hurt me, budgie or no-one else. .. so.. the things are not so simple as point someone and say it was that ones foult. ok? it is no-one's foult. Danna coldn't know how I felt since I put it out so simple and my "state" is a bit complicated. She simply writed her feelings down where Budgie got a bad feeling.. what is natural.. and blamed herself.. what shouldn't be.. but I bet there are things in life what have made her thing such things first.. Don't blame everything first handedly yourself Budgie. Nothing is one persons foult but it is event of happenings and depressed state makes your "vision smaller" and you don't see the whole truth. Hope this clears things up. That is all for now

Commented on: Wed Jul 18, 2007 @ 12:48am


	No, I'm not leaving you, Pian and yes I do understand those personalities. I've met one of them.... As for Symphony, well... We all know she's full of crap, to be perfectly blunt and she's just a selfish b*h who could care less about anyone than herself.... Don't worry about it too much, 'kay? wink**

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Commented on: Wed Jul 18, 2007 @ 12:57am


	I try danna. I do.. it just hurts a bit times and is hard.. Expecially since I try so hard and at times I think I'm loosing my grib on it ^^; and yeah.. you met my "good side" I think.. I don't think you have't met the "aggressive site" .. but if you hang around you might be abel to =3=;;

Commented on: Wed Jul 18, 2007 @ 01:40am


	hugs Pain and Sasori Aww...ok. I understand. About the whole left behind thing. Its happened to me all my life. Never have I ever had a real true friend that I could lean on or I could ever talk to. And yeah, I guess its wierd but I can trust myself more with you guys, who I have never seen before, than with my real friends..... Its ok Pain. I was just worried about getting between you and Sasori. I mean, you two have this great thing going. I don't want to ruin it or anything. ^^ Thats all. ^^ PS. I agree with Sasori. Symphony is a b***h. You don't even have to dig to see that she is mean. She just....shows it. No offence or anything. Its just my opinion.

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Commented on: Wed Jul 18, 2007 @ 05:54am


	No, I don't think I have Pain... But you told me I HAVE met a few... I only know I met the one. As for Budgie's staement I think that's natural, concidering you don't actually have to talk to people face to face. As for the friend thing I'll do what I can for you guys.^^;;; You're all awesome. Really. (Huggles.) I know I can't do much given the fact I'm just someone with a keyboard and a mouse that can type... But I will do my best to help you all as much as possible... I feel like I've just repeated myself.^^;;;; Anyway, as for Symphony I don't think we really need to discuss her, right? We all know how she is... But you're gunna meet some rats in your life... You just have to deal with them unfortuantely, cuase I think anything else would be unwise or illlegal. wink

Commented on: Wed Jul 18, 2007 @ 12:59pm


	hugs Pain and Sasori You both are good friends. Maybe I'm just anti-social but that's the truth. ^^

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Commented on: Wed Jul 18, 2007 @ 05:23pm


	Thank you guys. I'm as antisoscial too I think. '3'; I mean.. I kinda once gave up beleaving in goodness of human kind.. tackles danna but danna is here ^^ nuzzle <3 She is mah angel. Literly. (except she is not a spiritual creaure.. and without gender.. right danna? O_o ) but I like budgie too ^^<3

Commented on: Thu Jul 19, 2007 @ 04:19am


	I'm not antisocial I just happen to talk to people more online. (Ish tackled.) Awwww.... No matter how many times you call me your angel I still feel so glad I was able to help you so much. <3 To be honest, I've never had someone say that to me...

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Commented on: Thu Jul 19, 2007 @ 01:54pm


	Aww ^^ See, this is what I don't want to get in the way of. A beautiful friendship like yours.

Commented on: Thu Jul 19, 2007 @ 05:09pm


	Who said ytou're in the way? You aren't in the way.^^ It's good for people to have more than one friend, even if they have a best friend.

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