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I think that I've changed as a person, way too many times. I read all my entries before this, and I've found most of my earlier years to be filled with darkness and negativity. Then for one short period it seemed I was finding that false hope, that cliche, "Everything's going to be fine," type of thing.

I guess it's been over a year now that I've last written anything in here. I think I've matured a bit, and I look at life from a new perspective. Sometimes it's dark, sometimes it's a bit better, but in a way... I think that person I used to be, is still inside me, struggling to take over. I want to be a different person. Someone who's happy, makes others laugh. I'm not even sure why I started writing this new post. I guess it's just to try and redeem myself somehow.

I know that one side of me is cruel, but the other side is gentle. I'm still wondering who I should be-- who I was destined to be, if there even is destiny.

Time is so slow sometimes, but I wonder if maybe everything went by way too fast.