u guys know wat really suks .....my life does.
trying so hard to make everyone happy but its like hell man i swear its like living hell right now.
i try to do something right and everyone gets on my case trying so f#cken hard but damn its so freakin hard man...... crying im freakin going crazy my heart is going to explode i cryed out more tears today ...i told my dad that i wanted to learn the piano and then my brother and my dad started to yell at me... cry ...so freakin hard man i told them that i would pay for the piano lessons myself and then turned around and walked to my room and locked it ....then i began to cry again.....i just layed there and stared at the cealing and then the tears just poured out crying cry cry then right there i realized that they have never supported me in anything that i have done at all......and the only one who did care and supported me was my kid brother hes probly the only one who believes in me he and my little sister give me the streangth to get up and keep on going with life and to fight for everyone around me......................but its so freakin hard ....i stood up from the bed and then i began to tear down the pictures off my wall .....now there is only a plain white wall it feels like me and when i open the curtains the light just makes it so bright but not as bright as before now its just an ordinary room i gave up art just acouple of hours ago and probly everything just my studies right now my studies is probly the only thing i will keep on doing everything else is dead to me ..... crying even my friends laugh in my face when i tell them that i want to make it as an actress and a singer ....even my mom tells me that it is hopeless no one really gives me hope except my bff kristine and my gaian friends and andrew hes my friend hes a senior in high skool and he told me to go for watever i want to go for and of course my choir teacher ms.lanpher..........well yeah as im writing this i feel like s&*t ..........isnt my life great u guys.......... cry
 nelly uchiha · Sat Nov 10, 2007 @ 04:02am · 15 Comments |
