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Well what can you expect? It's a journal... A journal that belongs to a random person-living a random life. well... theres a lot of things to expect! so, expect the unexpecting!! ...*back ground noise* (dun-dun-dun...)

mitzu_nahora
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Posted: Thu Jun 16, 2005 @ 06:47am

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	So slow...(it's inside me now...) cold... These days have passed so slow... and all i can remember is the bad of them... all that i laughed i forgot. I can just remember the mistakes i made, and what i shouldn't have said...- "What's right is wrong, what's wrong is right..." I really don't care how i act.. good or bad... i'm only gonna remember the bad...even my happiest memmorie...was lost some where.... eek ...grins i feel so cold inside... like BURSTING! OUT! and SCREAMING! my head of at everyone!! tell them i don't give a f* about there feelings and problems!! scream stare .... i have enough of my own. Saddly i can't do that, i can't stop it from happening it just comes with out a warning or a sign... and i do help, and i do try... and i love to see that i make someone feel better... i hate beeing happy, i hate beeing sad, i hate beeing mad all the time.... the one that i only like... the one that was alaways there...the one that only came through when i called something else... lolenyness... hiddin' in the back of the room where no could see it. walking by the deserted halls while everyone was at the back... sleeping at a desk while evryone had fun playing out side... the one where everyone picked at , screamed, blamed, ran from and deserted. The one where... u walked to the back and saw ppl u knew, u walked too and wanted to just play for once , and not be alone... the one when they ran away from u and took ur shoe and made u walk on the muddy floor... the one where u where hidding behind the desk for more than 3 years..the one when everyone u thought was ur friend when they,actually talked behing ur back and hated ur guts... and where using u to get better grades.... the one where they made a chain around u and made fun of u, laughed at u...the one where they though u where a piece of garbage and passed u around like a plastic ball, the one when u just wanted to not be alone not even for a momment... they where never to be found... the one when u feel hated by everyone and u feel like nothing ,and should just, end it all... stare That one, i have... and will always...love. P.S... My dog had puppies... blaugh heart mrgreen exclaim 4laugh**

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Commented on: Thu Jun 16, 2005 @ 07:19am


	<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/P/PainfulBliss/1107704158_izsad_word.JPG" border="0" alt="Sad"><br>Your word is: Sad. You wanted to give yourself to<br>someone. But they didn't accept you. Being<br>rejected, whether it be from family, friends,<br>love-interests or peers, is a very hurtful<br>thing to go through. It is also likely that you<br>have been betrayed several times before, which<br>is why you keep away from everyone now. You<br>learned the hard way to never trust people and<br>your defence-mechanism is now to isolate<br>yourself. Yet you yearn for people who will<br>understand and like you, to have the thing you<br>never had: love. ..exaclly..

Commented on: Thu Jun 16, 2005 @ 07:28am


	You are exactically like me! You could be a vampire with your eye closed. The thought of drinking blood doesn't make you skwimish, and you get upset easily when reminded that vampires aren't real. You are a true vampire deep within.

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Commented on: Thu Jun 16, 2005 @ 07:35am


	<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/P/PainfulBliss/1112614591_l.vengeful.JPG" border="0" alt="Vengeful soul"><br><b>Your soul is vengeful.</b><br>That is the driving feeling you have in your<br>life right now. Someone fooled/betrayed you<br>really bad and now you are after them to make<br>them pay. Your heart and mind has been<br>blackened by your hate for this person and it's<br>on the line obsession. You need to let go, but<br>that is something you just are incapable of<br>doing. Betrayal is something you don't take<br>very lightly and you can easily make new<br>enemies. People often see you as a cold and<br>harsh person who may be in need of anger<br>management, but they don't know what you're<br>going through and can't understand. On the<br>bright side; you don't give up that easy when<br>you've decided to do something. Hopefully you<br>will have your revenge, if it is within reason,<br>and get your honour and dignity back.

Commented on: Thu Jun 16, 2005 @ 07:43am


	<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/P/PainfulBliss/1104181035_re_answere.JPG" border="0" alt="Vampire"><br>Your connection with darkness is through your<br>interest in vampires. Theese occult beings<br>fascinates you. Their lives are just something<br>you would kill for, and if you would have the<br>opportunity to be sired, you would. Living a<br>mortal kind of life is just so ordinary and<br>boring. You aren't necessarly evil just because<br>of this interest/obsession, you just can<br>connect with them and their lifestyles. Though<br>people have a hard time understanding this and<br>chances are you're a social outcast. Perhaps<br>you hate your life and therefor developed this<br>interest, to escape reality.

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Commented on: Thu Jun 16, 2005 @ 07:44am


	<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/P/PainfulBliss/1104181529_ed_answere.JPG" border="0" alt="Depressed"><br>Your connection with darkness is through your<br>depression. Hated, sad and often feeling<br>lonely, there is only a few that appreciate the<br>real you. You tend to keep to yourself and away<br>from the world since you don't want to be hurt<br>and betrayed again. Music gives you the<br>understanding you need to get through, it's<br>your "therapy". Or you express<br>yourself through art or writing. Chances are<br>you're also an anti-social person, who only<br>likes being with close friends, if even that.<br>The world has finally showed it's true face for<br>you and you wish life wasn't this miserable to<br>live through. Maybe you'll find happiness in<br>the future, but right now you're just hiding<br>away from the world. Who needs people anyway?

Commented on: Thu Jun 16, 2005 @ 07:50am


	<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/P/PainfulBliss/1112620757_ce.Element.JPG" border="0" alt="Ice element"><br>Your element is Ice. This element may seem a little<br>odd, but this is a side-effect from when the<br>element of Water gets to hurt. Once you were a<br>content soul, and happy with life. But then<br>something happened. Not necessarily on one day,<br>it probably happened gradually over time. You<br>lost your will to care and became even more<br>reserved from the world. People had hurt you in<br>ways you do not want to remember and now you<br>isolate yourself from them. You have turned<br>into an outsider and probably dress more in<br>black than you used to. Your depression is<br>eating you up and tearing you apart and the<br>worst part is that no one is willing to help,<br>or so it seems. In school you are often by<br>yourself or one single friend and you rarely<br>seem to be truly happy anymore. Your sad,<br>distant eyes and constant frown seems glued to<br>your face and you need a saviour from this<br>world. You may turn to music for understanding<br>and sing/scream along in the lyrics to get rid<br>of some pain. You are not very open about your<br>problems to your family/friends, and wish that<br>they would just notice it and make it go away.<br>

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Commented on: Thu Jun 16, 2005 @ 07:55am


	Hmm, I do like Vampires... mrgreen blaugh ....sad? well, maybe... Deppressed.... ask my psycologist. confused ..Vengance? Oh, yeaaaahh!! domokun ....Ice... Soul as cold as Ice.

Commented on: Fri Jun 17, 2005 @ 01:06am


	you are troubled inside and must find your inner piece, once you make piece with yourself then you may walk down the road of happiness...ps i will always be there for you if you just need to talk about it all

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Commented on: Fri Jun 17, 2005 @ 04:28am


	<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/J/Jai16/1099788690_icsMystery.jpg" border="0" alt="Mystery"><br>E:<p align="center">Your Beauty lies in Mystery. Captivating, mysterious and alone. You<br>are the girl in the little black number that no one seems to know, the eternal<br>mystery girl. You make it a point to never let anyone know more about you than<br>you want them to and do a very good job of it. You're there one minute and<br>gone the next leaving them in wonder of who you really are. A mature and normally<br>calm individual, quiet and enjoy spending many hours of the day on your own,<br>most likely preferring night to day . You love the dark and some may find you a<br>bit strange. You seem to be rather distant and cold making hard for people to<br>get close to you, though you probably like the distance they usually keep. You<br>probably wear make-up, but concentrate more around your eyes than anything.<br>You know the effect you have and enjoy keeping people in wonder.</p> <p align="center"><b>Some Things That Represent You:</b></p> <p align="center"><b>Element:</b> Dark, Water <b>Animal:</b> Panther <b>Color:</b><br>Black, Maroon, Dark Tones <b>Song:</b> In The Shadows by The Rasmus<br><b>Expression:</b> Sly Smile</p> <p align="center"><b>Gemstone:</b> Black Diamond <b>Mythological Creature:</b> Demon,<br>Vampire <b>Planet:</b> Venus <b>Hair Color:</b> Black <b>Eye Color:</b> Garnet</p> <p align="center"><b>Quote:</b> "In the shadows for all time."</p> Oohh!! I really liked this one...^_^

Commented on: Fri Jun 17, 2005 @ 04:42am


	Cool rofl how many puppies question heart

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Commented on: Fri Jun 17, 2005 @ 04:55am


	The first one she aborted... cry but she gave birth to another one!! blaugh you know what... he/she is black... and i don't think he/she is fron amigo/fluffy- or what ever his name is.. stare ... i think he/she's father is Baloo... yeah!! THE SAME BREED AS HER!!

Commented on: Fri Jun 17, 2005 @ 04:22pm


	cool you have a pic of the anime berserk in there now i dint read all of that as you know im lazy so i guess is sadness whta youre talking about just get up cm'on you have like us that came make you laugh a little and maybe make you forgot some of your problems atleast for 1hr or 10 min so justget to corner were always there join us were are the revolution now join and kill some noobs

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Commented on: Sat Jun 18, 2005 @ 02:55am


	if you are alone i know why...if you wanna hide then go hide if you want to cry i know why...y you run run away thats all you can do just run i chosse to run but you can confont it cm'on just do it eek

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