To be lonely is to be on gaia
when youre on your friends ignore you
when you want to meet new people its like you dont exist
I Hate this feeling
Loneliness is dreadful
Plus when your friends do talk to you it only lasts a day or two
then you never talk to them again EVENTHOUGH they get on everyday
You dont know this feeling like i do
My real life friends are fading further and further away
Eventually they'll disappear along with my sanity
Thats why i cant wait 'til high school and college
then i can leave florida
This reched(idk how to spell this word and my mom says its like a curse word-shes jamaican-anyways)this reched state has caused me soo much pain and loss of my sanity better yet my father caused all this
I hate him I hate my father
If it werent for him i wouldnt live here
I wouldnt be the way i am and have such little friends and such a damaged heart
I hate him so much
I'm sorry to the people i've ever told i loved them
I lied
I mean i do and i can love you mentally and emotionally
But i can really love you
My heart left my body many months ago
It was just broken so much it just disappeared
Exploded, collapsed, watever you think happened but it is definitely gone
I'm sorry tyler,luke,especially justin(aka viking) this must be hard for you justin since i just met you today and you hate hearing things like this but this is my life story im sorry to all of you here on gaia who are my friends
but tyler,justin, all of you are lucky
Because if this dude on my bus didnt make me cry i would have probably commited suicide by now
Most people want to beat his a** for making me cry but if they knew that he saved me from myself they would think twice
So im sorry to all of you and I DO love you all
Thank you for being here for me
I'll talk to ya'll later
its kinda funny though most of you probably wont even read this well at least i got it out of my system
bye
 thinmint94 · Mon Nov 19, 2007 @ 02:15am · 0 Comments |
