I wish I could just erase things I dislike from my past. For example. My whoring, Paul with Mel. Some of our arguements.
-sigh- I dunno because of all my dreams and stuff. I cry and cry. How can you have such lack of trust in someone you love and go out with? Wil this change? Sure I forgave him.
But my trust that I find hard to gain in people. Was broken that day of him and her. And broke more when I found out he'd cut. And once more when he smoked.
I don't know. Sometimes I wish I'd never met him. It would have saved me from so much hurt. Yet then I think of all the happiness I've gained..
[Nympho] Whore · Mon Dec 03, 2007 @ 08:04am · 0 Comments |