Okay, so here's the thing. I'm stressing, yet again, because I'm thinking about the future. Now, don't get me wrong, things with me and Alley (she's the GF, in case I forget to explain) are going great; she and I have been together for 10 months now...but the thing of it is, I'm worrying that I might not be able to find work. As I'm sure we all know by now, there are more people than there are jobs, so that kind of craps all over things...I keep worrying about things though; will I find a job? Will I be able to get a place for Alley and me? Even further...will she still love me if I can't accomplish these things? She says I shouldn't worry, but I can't really help it at this point. I worry that I might not be able to give her the things she deserves, the nice expensive things that I know she deserves. At the same time, I worry about whether or not I'll actually be able to get through writing a book and getting it published and sold...most of that worry comes from the fact that aside from Alley and Troy (my cousin, whom I love) there is very nearly no support in my endeavor to become a successful author. In short, I continue to get asked my grandmother "what I'll do for a REAL job," as if the choice to write hasn't already been made. Anything else I'd consider doing for work would simply be stepping stones to my REAL JOB of writing for a living. For now, I'll stop worrying, I guess, and try to calm down too.
 Arashi Yanagawa · Tue Jan 08, 2008 @ 02:29am · 1 Comments |
