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My name shall remain a mystery but my nick name is Kitty. I live with my family in California. I have one younger sibling who a couple of months ago turned 3. I shall be 18 soon. I have three cats, a dog, a fish, and a sister(lol). I love to read manga and regular novels. I like romance, fantasy, adventure, and even history (historical). I love music as well. I sing in my high school choir and have just recently become a member of my schools chamber choir. I love animals, and have considered a carrier as a zoologist. I love cats and dogs, but i am not really fond of snakes, spiders, or deadly bugs. i am not a pervert and i don't really cuss. But i can be very open when hyper or tired. so do not give me a caramel frap w extra caramel, believe me funny but scary. Anyways thats me.
TTFN,
Kitty

	What do you do when your world seems to be crashing down?


My life feels as if it has come to an end. My heart feels empty and mind seems so blank. Every emotion within me is fighting to survive in thdless turmoil and pain. Nothing can fix it. nothing can mend it. All that occurs is an endless painfull ache that stabs at my heart. Why, you ask, well i'll tell you............................................................ Tonight..........................about 30 minutes ago a woman nocked on our door. she asked if we owned a siamese/himalayan cat, because if we did, she thinks she might have just hit it. of course how does one respond to such a question?!?!?! i rushed outside, and there was my cat.................Luna......................Dead! my mom brought her inside to see if she was still alive and five minutes she told me we had lost her. my heart exploded my life destroyed at the loss of another precious pet. my baby kitty my joy my comfort I am so lost I wish i could be found I keep on loosing things that mean so much to me and to many they would wonder and say "it's just a cat! why cry over that, just get a new one." It could never be that simple. my pets are my friends they are a part of my family and without them i feel so alone and weak. i love my animals as family and as friends and i treat them like kings and queens. why? you ask, well it is because i love to care for something and love it and in return recieve a similar love. I love all of my pets. and i still have pets, but it still hurts to loose Luna, because she came from the same family as the first cat i ever got when i moved here. Mushu was my present at the age of seven and when we moved she came too, along with my moms cat Kobe. Kobe liked the outdoors, and Mushu was very beautiful and looked like a kitten. She also loved the outdoors, but somebody stole her, and she didn't come back one night.............................she always came inside every night. of course a year later kobe was found on easter morning under our neighbors bush dead........................................supossedly attacked by a raccoon. They had had a kitten named Artemis, and a year later we got Mushu as well. Earlier this year we found Artemis out on the porch dead.................we didn't know why............................he was only six years old. and sadly, Luna just died...........................hit by a car. We never did anything to cause our cats deaths......................................and they all died very young....................................................... I shall never allow my cats outside again.............................because i don't want to loose them. I miss Luna so much! And the sad thing is that no one shall understand, because tomorrow at work i must pretend that nothing sad has happened, and then come home at 7:30 and cry some more and spend the rest of my weekend and next week crying over my precious friend and family that i just lost. I wish that no one had to feel the pain of loosing anything, be it family, friend, pet, life.................................it's just not a wonderful thing and the pain can kill you. I wish that i had never opened the door and heard that my cat had died.......................................................................................................................................................................................................................................... crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry [img:a4cdc8116f]http://public.tektek.org/img/av/m09/d26/22/f14589.png[/img:a4cdc8116f] smile razz KITTY razz lov2catnap · Sat Jan 12, 2008 @ 02:45am · 5 Comments


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Kaly Knightly
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Sat Jan 12, 2008 @ 03:06am

im soo soo sorry to hear that but dont give up like i almost did becasue of my grandma and my ...fish. i understand how u feel remember when Jessica F. dog died and i told her i knew her pain becasue my fish have died she said i didnt know anything but even if they were fish i cried fro days for the loss of them. if u need to talk to me jsut call my cell im always around. im going for a walk now so call my cell. and kitty if u need to talk to anyone talk to me even if u feel like i dont know ur pain becasue i jsut lost 5 fish believe me the fish are part of my family and so were sky and nibbles, my birds that nibbles died and sky flew away and is now dead soemwere. and dont worry they are in heaven waiting for u or they are now ur guardian angels. some peopel are bastards and dont believe taht animals have souls but we know better. well i gtg my mom is calling me and really if u need to call me.

Love u onee-chan,
Kaly Serenity Knightly

ps i will always be here for u

lov2catnap
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Sat Jan 12, 2008 @ 03:33am

thank you meimei
you are always someone i can turn too and i know that you understan my pain
i am trying to drown my missery by doing anything but thinking of feeling.
i don't feel phone sociable right now
but thanks anyways
i just need to know i'm loved and a big hug on monday would just make my day
I just really need my friends right now
its just so hard not to cry so hard
and yet every thougth makes me cry
i just need my friends to support me this week
please just be there for me
i know you will be
jube you meimei
Kitty
ps could you please tell onichan for me cause if i tell anymore people i think that i will end up crying even more

Mari-Mari33
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Sat Jan 12, 2008 @ 07:08am

I'm sooo sorry baby crying ,I wish I could go back in time and take away your pain. I know how very much your hurting and I wish I could fix this for you crying I know it doesn't make it better but it is better to have loved and lost that love than to never have known love at all.Fill up the empty space with the love you have for luna.I really wish you didn't have to go through this crying , 2 baby..mucho mas que todo el mundo heart

Mari-Mari

lov2catnap
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Sat Jan 12, 2008 @ 06:20pm

It could never be your fault.
I love you too
no worries
i just want to try to be happy
if i can't then at least i know that i have you and my friends there for me

Tezencatli
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Wed Jan 16, 2008 @ 04:52pm

Heartache is a hard fact of life. Something we have to live with. But don't forget that no matter what happened, she was happiest with you, she was very fortunate to have lived her life as a part of your family.

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