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To Joe....
Ok, this particular entry is dedicated to my friend Joe. The talks we have had have made me see that you are right, I have changed. It has not been for the better, my sudden 360 on life. I have felt such pain, from those who I once cared for. Now I only wish them pain and suffering, for I wont stand to deal with that pain much longer. I havent been myself, and my friends all know it. So, to my friend Joe, I thank you above all others. You helped me to realize where I was going wrong. I dont know if I will fully recover from what I have started myself as, since being this way seems to cut off the pain that your insensitive and obnoxious cousin has caused. I dont fully blame him, since it was my father that shut off my phone and comp. But he didnt help any by falling in and out of what he was feeling so easily. It stung to come back to nothing when all your thoughts told you that you had something. I am to blame as much as he, so dont think I am pinning it all on him. Just most of it. I love all my friends, and Joe you are the one who I was easiest to talk to, that was a guy at least. You were my opposite and my equal during our weird arguements, and you seemed to argue with me without starting a fight when I was mad. I cant stay mad at you for long, because you just wont allow it *laughs* You are a great friend and I am glad to have you here. Well, I g2g, love ya!!
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