i feel like i have no more strenght. i cant take all of this bull anymore. its so hard to have to be strong all the time. i miss my brother so much. i cant go to him and i cant talk to him. im always so tired. im not eating much anymore. i cant write....i feel so not me....ive been told i look pale. im so stressed. what else can i do. im trying to be strong but the tears keep coming. i cant let my family see..im afraid my friends will think i am a baby for it. this isnt me. i want to be happy. i want things to go back to being simple and carefree, but was anything ever simple and carefree for me. no...everyone is talking about how great their life is going..or they talk about how hard things are and i find myself wondering..do they really know what a hard life is..do they understand what they are saying or how lucky they are.
sunny
CloudsFall · Fri Aug 12, 2005 @ 08:49am · 1 Comments |