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Me and My Personal Philosophy
My name is Jessica. This is my final year in High School, at Montgomery High School. I am eighteen years old as of the thirteenth of November. My way of life is rather scattered and still a bit unknown by even me. I know that I believe that being with my family is the most important piece of my heart and mind. Without my family, I would not be who I am today. My mom raised me to be a good girl. She taught me to respect my elders, be kind to all I meet, be honest, live my life to its fullest, and to never let someone else take control of my life. I also learned that cleanliness is a beautiful quality. Although I still have a messy room at this very moment, but I honestly try to keep other things clean, except my room. My mom also taught me what love is and how precious it is in my life and hers. My mother and I have gone through a little more than seven years of just us supporting each other. Or at least I tried to support my mom, but at the time I was rather young. My father does not play a part in my life, but he did help me to show my childish side. Without him, I would not be so playful with my friends and family. Another important person in my life is my little sister Elena. In fact, the day this presentation is due, is her fourth birthday. Sense I was about three, I had always wished for a sibling, be it a boy or a girl. I finally received my precious wish when I was fifteen. My sister is the best little princess I know. She makes me happy on cloudy days. She is my happy pill and she is all I need in my life to feel complete and content. She also keeps my love for Disney and other wonderful shows, music, and books that would have been lost to me. My step father Angel is also a big part of my life. He represents a culture and language that is a part of my past. When I was younger I spoke Spanish, because my babysitter spoke Spanish and my mom would also speak it, due to the need for this language at her work. When Angel came knocking on our front door with flowers for my mom, who at the time had a blood clot in her leg, I was the first to say that mom had a new boyfriend. At the time, it had been a joke, but little did I know that I had predicted the future and created a new path for my life. Angel is from Oaxaca, Mexico. He is very kind and funny and he makes my mother very happy. He also helped answer my wish, by giving me my little sister. I will not lie to myself or anyone when I say that for the first three years of my mom’s marriage, I did not want to accept Angel at all. I was not racist, but rather I was used to having my mother all to myself and I was not at all used to sharing her happiness and my happiness with anyone but us. But everything worked out and I picked up Spanish again, received a wonderful step father, a little sister a few years later, a happy mom, and a very happy family. The rest of my Aunts, Uncles, Grandparents, Cousins, etcetera, have helped make my life very wonderful and happy. Then there are my friends. There’s Jacqueline, Julianne, Nicholas, Ingrid, Anna, Brittany, Jolene, and many other wonderful people that I have known and met throughout my life. Jacqui had been my friend for over four years now. She is a very wonderful person to be around. My whole family adores her and she is a person that cannot be forgotten. Jacqui is a very grown up type of person. What she wants she gets, and she knows just how to get it. She does not doubt herself and is kind to all no matter what. There are few days that she is ever grouchy or upset with anyone. Jacqui and I both read the same type of books. Romance novels and Manga books all the way, they just seem to hit the spot in life. We love to shop together. Jacqui is a very funny person and she is a lot of fun to be around. On my eighteenth birthday she told me to go around and tell people that I was legal now. She still has what my mom and call her blonde moments, where you can see a little blonde girl running about opening cupboards searching for some bit of knowledge that she knows she put somewhere, but where she does not know. She is one of those people who get a joke a couple of minutes after it has been told. She is a wonderful person and she is always supporting me no matter how annoying I am. Julianne I have known for a little under six years. She helps bring out my very childish self. Julianne knows how to make me laugh and even hugs me when I am weak and sad. Nan-Chan, Julianne, is a very talented drawer and writer. She usually is playing games and watching shows before I have even gotten a chance to. She is just so much fun. We have big hopes of going to the same college after the Junior College. We love to watch anime together and read lots of Manga. I am the reason why she now likes romance now. What can I say; I am a very good influence. Nick has been my good friend for about two years. He is my first gay friend. He is really nice and sweet. And if he were not gay I would probably have a big crush on him. He is kind to me and my friends and he always makes me want to laugh and punch him (lightly) in the shoulder all the time. He also introduced me to Yaoi, which is gay Manga, but I only read it for the great stories. It still baffles me that some of the best romance stories are written by and for gay and lesbian novels. But I must admit that they are great stories. Anyways, Nick is a really wonderful friend. Ingrid I met six years ago at Slater’s first dance. Her mom introduced us and we had a great time. We have only had one or two draw backs, but we are still good friends. Ingrid is a very talented. She can draw, paint, form pots, and much more. She also does synchronize swimming. She is also talented at that as well. I went to her group’s presentation of the Little Mermaid and it was really funny. Especially when her group’s leader had her son dressed in a girls bathing suit running around. Apparently he volunteered, and he was at least twenty eight. It was a lot of fun. Ingrid is really nice and funny. Anna has been my friend for six years as well. We get along very well. We both love to argue and we love to read. Anna is very kind and is always thinking of me when she is traveling anywhere. She buys me presents all the time. She is really funny and very intelligent. I hope that one day she will be my editor. She is a friend that I would hate to ever loose. I hope that I never lose her friendship because she is just wonderful and I am truly glad to know her. Brittany I have known for five years. She is two years younger than me but so full of energy. She is very funny but a bit odd. She has a very wonderful and creative imagination. She is a great friend as well. Jolene I met during summer school. She is a really cool person. She loves reading Manga as well. Mostly Yaoi though. She has a great since of humor and is very much like my evil half. I haven’t heard from her in a while but I intend to fix that soon. Nichole Encinias I forgot to mention. I have known her since third grade. She is still a good friend and when I need her she is there. She has a bit of pore health but I believe that is due to her very bad habits. She is still a good friend though. My friends support me in everything that I do. They help me become a better me. I have read too many books to reference to. I love books and they are a key part of my life. I love to read Katie MacAlister, Christine Feehan, Stephanie Laurens, Shana Abe, J. K. Rowling, Patricia Wrede, and numerous other authors. I love to read fantasy and romance. I do not watch smutty videos, but I do like predicting the romance. I will only watch the first kiss but after that I leave or ignore anything else that happens. I can normally predict what is going to happen next in books and movies. I first got into reading when I was in sixth grade and those books where the Harry Potter ones, and I read the first four at least twenty five times. Then I went back and read Patricia Wrede’s books and Anne McCaffrey’s as well. I loved to read so much that if I had time; I would finish a book a day. I still love to read but I have restrained myself so that I will have time for more things in life. Books are wonderful and I truly believe that without them we would all be lost. I also love Manga too, but the authors are all Japanese so it is difficult to remember their names. I have always loved watching Disney movies, Shirley Temple, the creator of Spirited Away and any of his other works, and Who Framed Roger Rabbit. I love watching old cartoons, like Looney Toons, Pinky and The Brain, etcetera. Harry Potter books have changed my life and influenced its new blossoming into my life now. I have loved fantasy all of my life and it really made my imagination sore even higher and it even created a new understanding to my own thoughts. I really do love my family and friends. I also love animals. Especially cats of any form. They just seem to make me feel calm and at peace with life and its troubles. Music is a big key to my heart. It helps me reveal my feelings and share my ideas and imaginations with others that I do not know. Without music I just wouldn’t be me. I like all types of music, but I am not really fond of rap as much. I also do not like horror movies. I fear death due to the fact that I do not know if I shall ever live again and see the wonderful people I love and know now.
I know you are wondering what this has to do with my personal philosophy, but all I can say is that without all this information you cannot know me. My friends and family are all one and the same. I believe that animal abuse is hideous, but I cannot see myself being a vegetarian any time soon. Life is precious and I try to cherish it to its fullest. I believe that if you are going to ruin your life than that is your choice but I already regret many things in my life and I am
striving to remedy these mistakes and become someone that I am proud to be. I wish to live proud and long. If I had to ask an omnipotent being a question, it would be hard for me to choose, but a common one would be: Will I ever live again or will I just disappear into nothing and be forgotten for all time? I dearly hope there is because I do not wish to disappear forever into nothing and know that I left the world the way I did. I am a very angelic person but I have many things that I believe I could have done better. At least I would like there to be an afterlife that can keep me from disappearing for all time…. That is all I can say about myself.
A friend did a small examination of me based off of the numerous messages I have sent him over the past three months. I believe that he knows me pretty well. Here is what he said:
It seems to me your lack of self confidence (it’s obvious in your writing style) stems from your distaste in your physical appearance. You seem to distance yourself, saying things about your friends and family (you already pointed that out) and some current things, but not about how you feel about them. You keep your likes and dislikes relatively secret, making any more connection to others relatively insignificant, that way if someone leaves you in any way you can cut ties with reasonably little problem. Also, you don't like to takes a lot of risks, especially if you have a shot of being hurt or rejected, stemming back to your lack of self confidence.
 lov2catnap · Tue May 20, 2008 @ 05:54am · 0 Comments |
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