Well my friends call me trinity online so we will start there. I was 17 at the time we met it was really odd I was in school and dating another girl at the time another girl I was trying to break up with. well me and him met in a im chat box with a mutual friend who was notorious for throwing every one online into a "chat room" that was private. well me and jed hit it off right away and were engaged by February but we were still separated. Now earlier in December he had been messing with a girl that was under age he's 22 right now. well I graduated and got a job he ended up in jail but we still wrote each other secretly couse he told my mom about it and she forbade me from talking to him. allot of good that did. allot happened while he was in jail my ex-gf brought over a guy whose guts I hated. But me and him ended up talking his name is Wolfy to me now. Ok so I made plans to move cross country alone to Michigan to be with jed thing is I had a home. his mom wanted me to come up (he's 22 and still lives with his mom and her boyfriend) he also had a brother 18 now. oh I'm 19 almost 20 now kinda important. well ok here goes.
I was seeing wolfy for about two months before I left for Michigan. he helped me run away from my parents house and let me live with him for about a week and a half until it was time to take my bus up. we kinda got really hot but he had plans and so did I. we called it friends with benefits, and boy the benefits were good as a snow cone in hades. well when I got on the bus to leave I felt I was leaving something important behind. I felt this huge hole in my chest and my tummy didn't feel quit right. I cried when I pulled out of that station I had kinda fell for wolfy. Wich I didn't realize till much later.
The first place I finally got to see Jed was in jail. I refused to cry that day I was looking for a job and had found one and I was trying hard to settle into my new home. for me it was difficult because I didn't know what was going to happen. well he got out and I had the day off he proposed to me the right way first thing in teh morning right after breakfast wich he made me crawl back into bed for. he was sweet as could be at first and then things got worst. he held onto my cell phone limited my family calls and internet . I got two jobs and worked 16 hour shifts through the holidays and never had money cause I was giving him money. I ran him to work ran his mom to work and paid for half the christmas presents that year. well it eventually got to the point where he left me crying on the floor cause I was hurt on the inside every other night. all he ever wanted to do was have sex, play his games or sleep and he was controlling about how I slept too. I wasn't allowed anything without his permission first. I tried to tell him what happened when he was in jail but he said don't worry about it. after 7 months (all winter in Michigan) I finally called it quits he didn't want me preparing for a wedding that he wanted and he didn't want me doing anything that got me noticed by any one else he wanted me at home all the time but i had to work to support him. I left him in may on bus again to the south where I live now. I moved in with wolfy and later the week i got here jed calls me up. he found out about me sleeping with chris and begged me to come back, I said no I won't and I can't. no we don't talk we don't think about each other and we don't play games online no more. he's a remnant of my past. thing is I was empty and depressed the whole time I was with jed he used me and abused me and I couldn't take that. The whole thing boils down to. when I was waiting for wolfy to pick me up in that bus station he had dropped me off at I realized I made a circle. and when I saw him round that corner I ran to him and almost plowed him into the ground, the second I was in his arms the moment I was able to hear him again I was safe at home. unfortunately we still have difficulties with jed.
But hey now I have a cell phone, internet, 2 dogs 2 cats, a great boyfriend who would do anything to make me happy, and my family back unfortunately for Jed there is allot of trouble coming he's breaking his parole and going to end up back in jail soon. -sigh- some people just can't be fixed.
ohanakitten · Wed Aug 20, 2008 @ 12:35pm · 0 Comments |