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Life: each breath i take adds another chain
each heart beat puts another knife through me
and with every second i cry another bullet flies in at me
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when your dreams come crashing down, what will you do?
no body knows me
they could never understand
that which pulses from within
my heat, my soul
the pain, that gore
the sadness & bitter tears
the secrets locked deep inside
the stuff i continue to hide
my everlasting nightmare
these repeating dreams
the transparent pple speaking to me
the emotional rush
coming to conquer
falling into the dust
i fail again, just crash & burn
living this life is like my own suicide
and no one ever sees
the agony that damages me
over & over again betrayed
lies and labels that hypnotize
sterio types & still i live this empty hopeless life
but where can i go, what can i do?
there is no escape, no happy place to go to
everyday is a struggle
each and every hour adds another link to these chains
must i die to finally really be seen
would you miss me
my doubts override my hopes
the pain rains over me
like a fall shower of leaves
the cold grim reapers hand holding mine
death lies on the other side
the pills. the rope, the knives
the plans & thoughts that run through my mind
suicide .... homicide .... no escape
and no one believes a bloody ******** word i say
like it'd matter anyway
im not important, no one truly cares
its all lies, nothing but lies
and no trust remains
i dont belong here, i hav no place
i wanna slit until i fade away
music & art are my only escape
i try to open up but they just push me into the dust
oh ur fine ... love aint everything ...
its just ur hormones effecting ur mood
no its not! im not fine .... you dont even know
you think its just a change in my mood
its notjust my mood, its me changing again
falling back into my sadness
i act happy tho all i am is hurting on the inside
life has offered me just so much pain
with few rewards ... life has never been
and never will be fair ...
but when your dreams come crashing down ...
what will you do?

xXMiss AsphyxiationXx
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  • User Comments: [1]
    Teh Twinkeh Munster
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    Wed Sep 24, 2008 @ 03:08am


    why... why did you have to write this? T.T
    this is what i am....... i cant say anything.... idk what to say.... this is just.... too much......


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