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I'm in a mix of love, desperation, desire, and flirtatious girls.
Okay, there's nameless girl 1, girl 2, girl 3 and girl 4. And me.
So, I'm totally in love with 1. She's beautiful, funny, smart, and more than I can explain in these few words, I love her. 14 long months of a quiet crush. Pathetic, I know.
Then, about a month or so ago, girl 2 came into my life. Girl 2 is just as beautiful, funny. But I can't take her the way she takes me. She wraps her arms around my waist, but it's not the same as when girl 1 embraces me. But I still have these feelings building up for girl 2.
Girl 3 is in one class at my school. I love the class, but it's mainly because she's there. She's got this sweet pale face and a caring, gentle, light-hearted way of taking things, and the most adorable way of hugging me. We go one arm over, one under. Unlike girl 2 who goes arms under myn, and girl 1 who hugs me with ehr arms over mine.
I dunt know the difference.
But I know she's got a thing for me, like girl 2. Unlike girl 1. But you see, as much as I may like girl 2 and 3, I love girl1.
And there comes in girl 4. It hurt to know another came in, but she's still there, nonetheless. Tallest, too. Much taller than me. She's real dominant, but in this cute, "I got you!" way where she'll hide ubnder a table or huddle in a corner and just look so cute! Okay, so I like her 2nd best. But... she's just as oblivious as girl 1, my luv.
To understand the confusion in my head it to understand all the mathmatical formulas in the word, then some scientist due come up and say W and L never existed and the equal sign is forbidden. It's just to weird.
Oh well. I'm not saying this for your pity, but typing it out seems to help with my own decision making
My decision for right now;
Finish sister's costume and try on my new silver wig just one more time then worry about the love-5-angled-polygon later.
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Author's Note; Date. Dec.24.08
Amber; She's a great friend. And I'm not plannign on tyring to make things any more akward. I really do liek you and you're a great friend, Turtle, but you're still just a freind. Can we keep it that way?
Megan; You've been my friend for so long. I'm sorry it had to end on such a sour note... I hope I get fiz things. But it's only a phase for you and You'll move on. I'm not right for you. I am a friend, let's keep it liek that, allright?
Kirbi; You /know/ how much I love you, but don't move so fastm please. You know that our secret is ahrd enough to keep safe; any advancment next time we meet and... fi someone were to notice, then you know exactly what wopuld happen. You know I love you, babe, so just be careful. I miss you. ~kisses~
And Molly;
Thank you for beign such a wodnerful freind, stickign through this while noone else cou;d. You mena a lot to me, buddy. You're my best friend. I'd like to thank you for all that you've done. Best Friends Forever~
Okay, no more A/N, thank yew~!
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Author's note:
Gosh am I making a rather long love story, right?
I can't say I don't miss Kirby.
I do love Kara. I won't lie to you; She's amazinv. Too perfect~ But I don't know if I'm worth it... or will be worthy much longer. I love her, but how can I keep you?
And gosh, don't get me started with teh confusion I am feeling right now. Especially after last night.
Anyway. It's May 17, 2009.
Letss wait and see what happenes next
 Inspiration Staff · Mon Oct 27, 2008 @ 11:33pm · 0 Comments |
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