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That I'm really really sick of crying. And that I need to get some serious sleep. Over the past 4 days, I've got a total of 5 hours of sleep. I'm going to bed fine, the insomnia gets me everytime though.
Wicked is also tomorrow. My Hannekuh present is going to Wicked.
Gareth, you seriously ARE the coolest and greatest person alive on gaia. Like for sure. You've helped me so many times, and I've done nothing in return. That changes now.
And, I'm listening to my iPod right now. Hughbert Hillshire II. Almost makes me sad thinking I'm getting a new iPod. Orange one, needs a name too. But, Alesana seems to be most played on my iTunes and on my iPod.
"After today, silence will haunt you."
"I push you away, but you are the only thing I know."
"Sometimes I wish I would die."
And, if you ever read this, you know who you are, I want you to know something. I talked to you....there, again. The grass was wilted and hurt. You didn't feel rough like sandpaper anymore, you felt ice cold and piercing. The breeze turned into a hurricane wind, and the rain fell down hard. We didn't talk, but you tried to grab my arm. Your touch was cold and hurt, but you kept reaching for me. I screamed and begged you to let me go, but you just kept grabbing my arm. I asked why you were doing this, and you said "Don't touch them Savana." and when you opened your mouth to say something again, the wind and rain blew you away and you disappeared. Everything was black then. Everything was silenced. Everything was calm. I felt like I was floating. I could open my mouth, but I couldn't breath. I couldn't scream, I couldn't do anything. There were bright circles everywhere. Glowing with fog around them. I was moving towards one. I tried not to, but I couldn't get away from it. I was scared. I woke up.
Then I went to the movies today. The Day The Earth Stood Still. I thought it was actually okay. But all day, I kept seeing that bright circle. I had no balance either, and fell over a lot when walking. I'm to the point of not getting up if this happens again. I'm just gonna lay there. Then, someone can come help me up. But, they'd have to literally pick me up and stand me straight again. I'm giving up on walking if I fall over.
So that was pretty much my day. And tomorrow is going to be better, I hope. I'm totally not sleeping, I know that for sure. And it sucks, cause I'm going to be busy, and I CANNOT sleep during the play. So I won't. But I KNOW I'm going to be so tired tomorrow. Maybe I'll sleep soon? I can only hope.
 nangal · Wed Dec 24, 2008 @ 06:43am · 0 Comments |
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