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.....you know how it feels your something you wished never happens, happens?
well....that's how i feel...
my boyfriend...andrew.......his actions make me sad sometimes.....
he always hangs out wit' girls other than me (but not like buddy-buddy....like "ohh....your ssooo cute..!)
i know i shouldn't get mad, but right now i don't really give a ********, and
i know i shouldn't get jealous...but as i look at him.....it's like "OMFG!
WHADAA DOING TO MEH BOYFRIEND?!LEAVE HIM ALONE, HE'S MINE!!"
like this evil girl in my class name Tara....(i'ma kill her so hard, she's gonna die to death
he let HER listen to his ipod...FIRST!....not me...! ( i'm being really self-centered right now...and i know you have your reasons so i won't bug you about it...)
does he even know what she says?!
"Andrew will be mine!"(yeah she said that!) and "what did he ever see in you...?"
i'm used to being bullied around in my school, so no one defends me....NO ONE....
but...
sometimes i wonder.....
'when will he ever notice this?
when will he ever know I'M hurting when he does this'?
WHEN?!
i get sad when he does this and it make me feel i should break up with him
....
but it's just getting good......4 months......
ever since october 27....we started......
....
so if your reading this Andrew....
can you plz treat me better...
or like a girlfriend should be treated.....the best girl in your life.... well besides your sistahs and mothah of course....
but you said something to me that meant a lot and i've been praying it would happen.....so is this how your gonna treat me if YOU want that to happen?
you said it and i want it to happen, will you do everything to keep me happy?
do you even know what you said to me in that note?
i've brought it to school with me everyday, cuz it meant a lot and i LOVED it....... wanna know what it said?
1.i love you
2.kiss me.....ring any bells?
ask meh about it cuz i know your reading this cuz i told you to.
i worte this a while ago so i may not fell this now but....
do you know how often i watch you? ( not to be a stalker..)
you mean the world to me...do you know how hard it is to see you go?
DO YOU?!
well you gotta talk to me soon.....
is that too much to ask??
crying
well...andrew....i'm always watching you and if your happy then i am.... and i'll do my best for you to be happy so....
i'll always be there for you..... heart luv you!