To quote the song, "I don't wanna be in love" I really really don't. I'm tired of it. I'm tired of being the victim to deceit and I'm tired of being used and "loved" only when it satisfies the other person. He tells me he can't trust me when it comes to reading his stuff, well that's fine with me because it has become obvious that I can't trust him to love me as much as he says he does. And even though he's falling for some b***h he doesn't even know on this god forsaken website that I was stupid enough to introduce him to, I still love him. I hate that! I can't ******** stand it! All I want to do right now is cry and scream and throw something at him but at the same time I want him to hold me. Ugh, I'm disgusted with myself. The fact that it's happened again! Why can't anyone just love me!? Really, am I( that bad of a person to where every ******** guy I give my heart to just tears it up and throws it back at me? What is wrong with me!? All I ******** did, Shadow, is love you and ask for you to do the same What is so ******** difficult about that!?
Sudoku Kitten · Sun Feb 22, 2009 @ 05:18pm · 0 Comments |