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Wandering through

I am insane, literally. I spent a long time in the mental ward for attempting to end my life. Now I fight with the pain.

XanVega
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Posted: Wed Apr 01, 2009 @ 11:05am

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	Long time... It has been a very long time since I felt like writing my thoughts, I need to do it more, I feel the shadows of my mind creeping back to me. I know, I complain too much but at least I am alive, I will say that right away. I am thankful to be alive. I just am tired of being sick and tired. I will endure until my heart quits on me, I see no point in endless crying over the pain any more... when I die, I die. Morbid... I know. I am just being realistic. I am going to accomplish all I can with my time I have. I will keep fighting to finish my novel... I have pretty much given up on becoming a mother... or on having friends. I have been a terrible friend, I have no patience for people these days. I have one friend who is dying, very very sick... well I can't even offer him a gentle word because I know he will more or less just spit in my face like he has others... and I know if he snaps at me, I will snap back. crying

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Yes, I am old, deal with it!

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VGM22
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Commented on: Thu Apr 02, 2009 @ 02:52pm


	Good to hear for ya, big sis. Plus you are a friend to me and I'm a friend to you, so at least you still at least one friend. Like I told you before. I'm going to be your friend and lil bro till the end. Also you are a kind person with your words and I'd never spit in your face or snap at you for saying those words to me.

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