This Friday made me sick this weekend... love sick. Sick that my first BF is forced to become my Ex, because he HAS to move. And we've been going out for almost a wonderful 2 months... I mean, I know it had to happen sometime, but why right now? Why not until the end of Jr. year? WHY NOW?!
I never thought it would hurt this much just thinking about losing him. I know it's not for sure right now, but it's most likely he's going to go away where I will never see him again.
In 2nd Hour, there won't be that special person sitting in the desk right in front of me, turning around to talk to me or be with me.
When 7th Hour ends, there will be no one waiting for me when I come out of the room... no one to give me a kiss, to hold my hand, or to tell me that he loves me and MEANS it. Almost like I dreamed it all just to satisfy my romantic needs of survival.
I didn't think I would care this much to the point where I would break down 3 times in one day and then all I do is think about him. Everything I think about leads to him.
Every song all of a sudden relates to him or to our relationship. Going on the computer gives me the sudden urge to go on my email, myspace, gaia, and facebook more than necessary to check and see if he ever came online.
Life sucks. cry
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