Recently, I can not help but find myself striken with curiosity. I question people and their motifs, and sometimes even their very existance. Now...we are all aware of "curiosity killed the cat", but I'm more towards "never look a gift-horse in the mouth." Unfortunately that is exactly what I am doing with this entry. As most of you know I have a gaian bf, but if you were to go by Rp's...you really would beg to differ. Our relationship has had its up and downs...which just makes it more enjoyable, but lately things seem....well, I don't know different. I wish I knew how to put it into words so I could tell him, but sadly I have none. -laughs- And it is hard enough to talk around him as it is, he is very talented at leaving one speechless. I should probably quit dancing around the subject and just tell him what's on my mind, but...I already know what he's going to say, but it's funny because when we met...he told me he was the same here as he was in person, but now...I can't be too sure. Not only of him, but of myself. Or, maybe I've been burned too many times that I've forgotten how to accept happiness. Part of me says this was a big mistake, but my heart tells me "Damn you alys. You are going to go a-wall over nothing and lose the best thing that has happened to you in a long time!!"-sighs- I just wish I knew for certain.
Mrs Lexxy DragonBringer · Tue Nov 22, 2005 @ 03:12am · 2 Comments |