I see nobody ever listens to me when I say "Update your ******** Journals" >_>; Except Calla. Calla, you rock. Even if you don't have My Space. Anyways...
Life. It's interesting. Today, I had school. Naturally. I was late because of my sister. Blah. Art = awesome due to Digital Imaging project and Gelletin Printing. English = kinda sucky. We're reading the "Grapes of Wrath" Which is like the most boring/depressing book this side of the universe. Graphics Design was... alright. I just finished up the tutorial I had to write and restored another image. Super fun! Zach needs to die, but super fun otherwise! <3
After school I worked. I delivered papers, then I went to Kat's. It was pretty slow while I was there, made a couple of sales, but it was mostly me working on my comic for Art and Culture which is due... soonish?
Then Ryan came in around 5:15. Ryan, Susan's boyfriend. It's the first time we really had the chance to talk. He's a really cool guy. Susan's really lucky. We waited for Susan for a little while and talked, then he headed out to someone's to play video games. Then I headed out after hearing AWESOME news about something to do with Kat that I won't say ^_^
I went to see how Susan's Tattoo was going along... pretty good. Her new one looks awesome. Then we drove over to Ryan's. And there she stayed. and here I am, sitting updating my journals. ^_^
Hmm.. what else can I say? What else has been on my mind? So many things. So many things I wish I could share with the general public, and yet can't. Well... I could but I'm afraid of who might read.
Let's see... Liz. I don't know what I'm going to get he for christmas. Well, I do. I'm getting her a nice set of dishes, silverware and some pots and pans. Maybe some yummy food too. Because next year she'll be moving into Noel's, and she says she REALLY needs some cooking stuff. But... I dunno. I want to get her something fun too... *opens wallet and sigh mark flies out* Crap.
I pretty much have everyone elses gifts. Liz always seems to be the hardest to buy for... for some reason.
Okay, now we're going to get personal. because I really need to let some feelings come floooowing out. Am I too clingy? That's one of my worst fears, that I'm being too "clingy". So afraid that I'm going to attach myself and then be severed really abruptly, feeling that same pain I felt when Michael desided he no longer wanted to be my friend. It all comes back to that in the end, sadly.
I don't bring this up abruptly, I have good reason to it. I'm not quite that dence. There's actually a person who, I suppose I'd now offically would call a friend, but I'm not completely sure whether he'd consider us as friends or not. Well, I think he considers me a friend, but a good one? I like it when people trust me, it's a strange thing.
Like... I know Susan would come to me if something was wrong. And she'd poor her heart out if it was really bad. I don't always have the answer, but I like being there for her.
See... I'm not sure if he'd come to me if something major was wrong. Rendering me completely useless. Making me feel like... I'm not good enough, that in turn I've done something wrong. That's how michael was, and this is how we ended up. Not even looking at each other while walking down the hallway, just a glare or a turn away. I don't want this friendship to end that way. actually, I won't let it. So, people. Am I too clingy?
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