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Love, in all its forms, is my main reason for existence.

	So many friends...?
	So many friends...?

I have so many friends on here......

So why do so many of them make me feel so lonely? So empty? So unsatisfied?

Where are my true friends? x'/ Why is it, that going over my list now... only a couple seem to be /true/ friends; only a couple care about me as well.. instead of just using me to stave off boredom, to seek help for themselves, or whatever else it may be...

I'd say maybe it's just me, being pessimistically selfish... but this isn't the only time my list of "friends" has left me rather cold and empty feeling... crying gonk

Am I really that uninteresting? That unfriendly? Why do so many people not care about me? sad I thought, hoped, that once I started listening, truly listening- listening to understand, more people would be willing to talk to me more often.... but it's still the same few.... and even some of those are rare..... and limited.....

My current questions are: If I start over fresh, how fresh should I go? And if not, or even if so.... the ultimate question is:

How many people would be hurt if I never talked to them again? How many people would notice if I never paid them any attention and/or even removed them from my friends list?

*whispers softly in your ear*
Can I Keep
You?
Hold me close,
Kiss me passionately,
Weaken me slowly,
Love me deeply, heart
heart Show me that you want me & you'll never let me go,
& I promise I'll do the same.

AimiToraChouKokoro · Sat Jul 04, 2009 @ 10:11am · 4 Comments


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vamporeon
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Sat Jul 04, 2009 @ 03:20pm

don't leave meh!!! *snuggles* i would miss you to much emo crying crying crying

AimiToraChouKokoro
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Sat Jul 04, 2009 @ 11:56pm

Awwww! *Huggles* Don't worry. You were one of those on my list that I wouldn't've left. heart 4laugh Thank you though. I truly appreciate knowing you feel the same way, too... and actually took the time to read my journal and comment on this entry. I can't even begin to tell you how important it is to me that you've done so. So thanks!! biggrin 3nodding heart

vamporeon
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Sun Jul 05, 2009 @ 12:06am

your welcome smile

AimiToraChouKokoro
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Sun Jul 05, 2009 @ 12:13am

smile 4laugh heart It helps to know at least a couple people for definite-sure care. heart

I just feel horrible that I wind up questioning how much people care but then again... only a few people REGULARLY talk to me -with or without me trying to talk to them- so.. x'/ (You being one of those people <3 smile )

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