Maybe it’s hard to believe that I could fall in love with mine enemy, or maybe it’s as believable as people say it is, and I could love him. I don’t know what to think about it, I don’t know how to deal with this strange pull I feel towards him, I just want it to go away.
“Leikki, Valkan wants you to come to the party,” Quinn wined.
“Is Dmitri going to be there?” I asked; I really didn’t want anything to do with that Angel.
“Well duh, why wouldn’t he be? It’s his house to!”
“And yours now apparently.”
“Oh, don’t be a spoil sport just because you don’t have a mate.”
No matter how much I hate to admit it, the thought of a mate made me think of Dmitri, and how much I wished he could be mine. The thought repulsed me and I suddenly wanted nothing to do with anyone, I just wanted to hide away from the world. I didn’t want to want an Angel the way I wanted Dmitri, I really didn’t want anyone like that. I figured that I’d always be able to stay on my own and not to be apart of anything, to keep myself away from the rare thought of having a mate of my own, and here I was, finding myself reaching out for someone I knew I could not have, ever, not without fear of death.
“C’mon Leikki,” Quinn wined, “Come for me if no one else?”
I looked over at my life long friend and sighed, feeling myself give in to her wish.
“Alright, but if that Angel starts to mess with me, I’m leaving,” I replied with a small smile, “You know I can’t stand the sight of Dmitri.”
“No, I think you’re just in denial,” she countered.
“Why would I be in denial?”
Quinn just shrugged and I fought the urge to smack my friend upside the head. I watched her for a moment and groaned when she looked at me with her pleading eyes, trying to sucker me into it, sadly, it worked.
“Alright!” I exclaimed in defeat, “I’ll go, but you can’t blame me if we end up fighting.”
“Thank you!” Quinn said happily, giving me a hug.
“You’re just lucky I like you.”
“Yeah, yeah, whatever, go get dressed.”
“I am dressed.”
“Not for the party you aren’t. Why not put on that black dress you got last week?”
“Are you NUTS?!”
“Nope.”
I rolled my eyes and sighed in defeat, I really hated it when she got me to do stuff without even trying. I walked up to my room and pulled out a black dress from the very back of my closet, I never realized how much I wish I didn’t have to wear it, until now that is. As I looked over the satin dress, I noticed how form fitting it really was, even with the slit half-way up the… damn it, the girl got me a dress with a cut all the way up to mid-thigh! I sighed in defeat and put it on before doing my make-up and putting on some jewelry, if I was going, I might as well make it worthwhile and mess with some guy’s head.
I walked back downstairs with a polite smile on my face, ready to chew out my best friend, until I noticed Dmitri and Valkan standing there, waiting for us. I bit back my natural urge to scream and just stared, I couldn’t help but notice how good he looked in his leather pants, tight muscle shirt and leather jacket. I caught him staring at me and I smiled sweetly at him, trying to hide the fact that I noticed his body’s reaction to me.
“Hello Valkan,” I said calmly, “Dmitri.”
Dmitri just grunted in acknowledgment and Valkan smiled at me briefly before turning his attention back to his mate. Dmitri hesitantly offered his arm to me and I accepted with just as much hesitation as him. Almost instantly, I felt a rush of heat come from him and I blushed, though I tried to hide it, he always made me feel this way, and I could never find out why. Quinn led us out on Valkan’s arm and we all go down to Danse Magnet in a limo, which nearly made my jaw drop, but I realized that it shouldn’t effect me anymore. When we climbed in, I easily slid in and ended up next to Dmitri at Quinn and Valkan’s urging, despite the fact that there was plenty of room. I sat as still as possible for a vampire, which is pretty damn still, and I held my breath, not wanting to smell him anymore. It’s not that he wasn’t appealing or anything, but I just didn’t want to attack him. I’ll admit, having tasted his blood once, I found it highly intoxicating and in a sense, arousing, I don’t like that, arousing is bad for me.
“Leikki, we’re here, so come on,” Quinn said.
“Yeah, yeah, whatever Quinn, shut up or I’ll make out with Dmitri right in front of you,” I snapped, not really in the mood.
“Really?”
I just looked at her and frowned.
“You’re really not considering this, are you?” I asked in horror.
“Maybe,” she countered with a smirk.
I rolled my eyes and nearly ran into the club, only to have Dmitri grab my arm and pull me back against him. I looked up at him in shock and caught myself when I felt myself start to lean against him.
“You really shouldn’t go in there on your own,” he said in his usual bored tone.
“And why not?” I demanded, “I can take care of myself!”
He just smirked before lowering his face close to mine and I could feel my breath catch in my throat. I could feel Quinn and Valkan go inside, leaving us alone outside, and leaving me pray to my own emotions.
“You’re a horrible liar you know,” he whispered in my ear.
“About what?” I asked, hoping he couldn’t hear my rapidly beating heart.
“You said before that you don’t like me.”
“I don’t!”
“Then why is your heart beating so fast?”
“It doesn’t matter!”
Dmitri just smirks before leaning even closer and claming my mouth with his own. Hating myself, I readily responded to him and moaned into his mouth as he skillfully coaxed me into opening for him. He slid his hand through my hair until he was cradling my head in his hand as he angled it for better access and snaked his other arm around my waist, pulling me closer to his body. It felt odd at first, having him kiss me like that, but at the same time, it felt wonderful and I found myself never wanting it to end. As if acting on it’s own, I could feel my body rub against his, begging for more, and he found himself unable to stop.
“Okay you two,” Quinn called from the door, “No matter how cute you two are together, I still don’t need to see you shove your tongue down her throat Dmitri.”
We jumped apart so fast, it sent a shiver through my body; having lost all the warmth his gave me. Quinn just raised an eyebrow and motioned for us to go inside, so we did, and stayed at and arms length. When we finally got inside, I was about ready to cry in frustration, my body wanted his touch, and I did too.
“Now play nice you two,” Valkan said before leading Quinn to the dance floor.
“I hate it when he says that,” Dmitri grumbled before grabbing my arm and pulling me off to the opposite side of the dance floor.
I did to, especially when I didn’t want to play nice at all, on the contrary, I found myself wanting to pin him to the ground and strip him. It didn’t help me much when he pulled me up to his chest as a slow song started to play, but I guess I managed to hold out without a major disaster, after all, I didn’t bite him… at the time. By the end of the night, I couldn’t stand not being by him, and it nearly killed me to admit it. I loved the feel of him holding me as we danced and I never wanted it to be over, but I didn’t have much of a choice, because it was over before I even knew it, and we were all heading back home. Dmitri and I didn’t say much on the way back; in fact, we didn’t say much of anything at all.
“Good night,” I said before heading to my room
I closed my door with a slam, quickly changed into a scarlet red nightgown and jumped onto my bed. I fell asleep without much notice, it happened so suddenly, but I welcomed the darkness as my own.
“Leikki, wake up!” Quinn’s voice called from the darkness, “We have a job to do today!”
I let out an annoyed moan and sat up, rubbing the sleep from my eyes as I looked around. After a moment or two of gathering my surroundings, I got out of bed and nearly fell into my wall, rephrase that, I did fall into my wall. Quinn let out a startled shout as I hit the floor, causing Dmitri and Valkan to run it like their life depended on it.
“Quinn, what’s wrong?” Valkan asked.
“Leikki fell and she won’t wake up!” she exclaimed.
It was an odd thing, being able to hear all this, but not being able to see anything. I knew my eyes weren’t open, everything was too dark for them too be, unless I had gone blind, which was highly unlikely. Seeing as my sight had temporarily left me, or at least that’s what I was hoping at the moment, I had to rely on my hearing alone and I hated when I had to do that. Judging by the smell and the sound of the movement, Dmitri knelt down next to me and lifted me into a sitting position so I was leaning against him. Personally, I didn’t think it was a good idea at the time seeing as I was insanely thirsty, which might have contributed to the fainting.
“Quinn, when was the last time Leikki fed?” Dmitri asked.
“Um… I think it was when she bit you in the movie theater,” She replied.
“That was five months ago!”
I wanted to scream at Quinn for telling him, after all, it wasn’t any of his business what I did to myself, and I didn’t need blood anyway. After I had taken from Dmitri, an odd instinct had taken over and I was no long able to feed off of anyone else, trust me, I tried.
“Maybe you should let her take from you again,” Valkan offered, “It’s not so bad.”
“Just because you became a blood bank for Quinn doesn’t mean I’ll do the same,” Dmitri snapped.
“If you don’t do it, Leikki won’t wake up!” Quinn cried, “Please don’t let her remain in her coma… she’s my sister.”
No… no way am I going to feed off of Dmitri, no way in Hell! I thought, I really didn’t want to feed from him again, I mean, he didn’t even like me that way anyway. It was an odd feeling, I knew I had feelings for him, but I knew for a fact that there was no way he could love me back, to him I was just a blood sucker.
“Leikki… drink,” Dmitri’s voice said from above me.
I tried to shake my head, to tell him no, that I didn’t need his blood or his pity, but I couldn’t move and I didn’t like it one bit. Next thing I knew, I could taste something sweet on my lips, but I couldn’t swallow and I found myself wanting to.
“Come on Leikki, drink… please,” Quinn, pleaded.
“I want you guys to leave the room for a moment,” Dmitri said in a commanding tone.
I didn’t know what her expression was, but I had heard both Quinn and Valkan leave the room, leaving me alone with Dmitri.
“Leikki, you need to drink,” he stated calmly.
Oh Lord how I wanted to, but I just couldn’t do it, I couldn’t get my mouth to open and I hated it so much I wanted to cry, though I would lose what little blood I had left in my system.
“Leikki, come on!” he demanded, it almost sounded like a plea.
I tried to move so I could take what I needed, but I couldn’t do it and I didn’t know what I would do.
There was a change of position and I heard an odd sucking sound before I felt warm lips against my own. I knew immediately that it was Dmitri, after all, he was the only one with me, but what surprised me the most was that I could feel blood sliding down my throat and I was slowly gaining control over my limbs once more. He pulled away after a moment and soon came back with more, only that time, I managed to wrap my arms around his neck and hold him there long after I had swallowed the blood he had offered.
“Thank you,” I whispered softly, my voice hoarse.
“Yeah,” he mumbled, “Now take what you need and no more than that.”
Dmitri bared his neck to me and I sank my fangs into his skin, moaning at the wonderful taste as it flooded all my senses. It took me a little while to release him, but when I did, I moved away to give him some space.
“Sorry,” I murmured, “I shouldn’t have taken so much.”
“You’re right, you shouldn’t have,” he replied, “But I really don’t care.”
Before I could have done anything, I found myself underneath him and his lips were rough on my own. I wanted this, but at the same time, I didn’t and it bothered me. I flipped him over and pinned him under me, a small smile on my face.
“Watch it buddy,” I whispered in his ear before climbing off of him.
Dmitri frowned and stood back up before fixing his clothes.
“I’m sorry,” he apologized, “I don’t know what came over me.”
“Yeah, I can see that,” I muttered before getting up and walking out of my room, I wasn’t sure what to do at that time but walk away.
Quinn went to approach me, but when I looked at her she stayed where she was, which was a smart move, I was about ready to kill someone. Something kept telling me to go up to Dmitri and finish what had been started so many times before. I knew I wouldn’t be able to fight of the instinct to make him mine for much longer, but I had to try, it was safer that way and I knew that. For some odd reason, I had found myself wanting to make him mine, but I couldn’t, there was no way my Council would allow me to mate with an Angel. They liked Quinn, she was an exception; they let her mate with Valkan and made it very clear that I was to never know such love. I was cursed to never be loved like Quinn and Valkan loved each other; the Council made that very clear to me so I wouldn’t even try to find one of my own. Quinn doesn’t know that I gave up my right to a mate for her to have her own, if she had known she would have tried to find a way to reverse what I had done.
“Watch it Lady!” someone snapped at me, I guess I had wondered outside and ran into someone.
“Shut up Blood Bag,” I growled, still not in any mood.
The person quickly scurried away and I mentally applauded them for being so damn smart. I continued to wander the streets, enjoying the heat of the sun on my pale skin, until I finally got tired enough to face everyone at the house again. Once I reached the gates of our Castle, I went towards the Kitchen so I could get something to eat other than Dmitri’s blood.
“Leikki, you’re back,” Valkan said from the doorway.
“Of course I’m back,” I grumbled, “I live here, don’t I?”
“Dmitri wants to talk to you.”
“About what?”
“You both have a new mission, and it involves you working together.”
“Whoopee fricken do da day.”
“Just go up to his room.”
I just grumbled before climbing the stairs to Dmitri’s room and walking in with my sandwich.
“So when are we going?” I asked, bored already.
“Now, since you’ve decided to come back,” he replied.
I just looked at him for a moment, a bit tweaked about how he was acting.
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