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Edit- First of though all I'm searching for my journal because I missed place it...so I will be typing some of my thoughts and feelings on here, even though I find that the internet never holds secrets..
Also this was requested from a friend
Yup, Yup, I'm thinking of changing my image>>> not physically but mentally, I am always the emo, high tempered ment, hyper, loud person, but now I shall change this all. Since people like to complain about my personality--I could careless, but hmm I just feel like changing it, I'm just going to be quiet and shy in school. Trying to control my anger which I have to admit I'm doing pretty well these past few days.. biggrin I am so pleased with myself instead of releasing it all out on people, I just somehow revert them all out by sleeping automatically in class, it's weird I'm pissed off that time, and then when I fall asleep or daydream I forget about it...weird.
Even other people in my class have noticed it..Good I'm glad, I'm going to miss being loud and funny though, man....oh well. Another thing that helps me is my music, yes the wonderful music, it helps me tune people out :3. I'm also feeling more confident about myself, I'm so glad--this is how it feels lol, wow, biggrin .
I'm now a loner now, in my POV, I don't really hang out with people no more, I just like to play it cool by myself, because like I said before, why be friends if your just going to be neglected or pushed away I find that unnecessary, so I just say 'Hi, goodbye' or whatever, keeping these little things to myself and only myself...I say I never forget certain things and I mean I never forget... but it is all good, just one more year..-sigh- yeah one more year...
Who likes who doesn't??
Well you already know Mark and all that, I know he somewhat likes me and stuff, but yeah I think I don't like him that much, I mean after what I saw(Not going to type it out..) I got turned off deeply and this is also one of the reasons why I changed :0, so anyway I'm just beginning to think of him as an older brother now...unless my feelings come back or something..which would take a long time because I never forget certain things, like I said before. One word starts with an 'N' (because I don't know who is reading this..because I know there are alot of noesy people which I can not stand have the time..damn)...and btw no it's not ****** lol only I would know..
Joe-....Could he possibly like me, I mean Naschard like an dumby asked him if he did and Joe said at the beginning of the year..-.- wtf, and now he doesn't as much..wtf is with people and that...Idk weird anyway..ugh yeah there are some signs he does though, hitting me all the time, messing with me, calling names, teasing me, staring at me lol, but no I don't like him.
I think that's about it now..unless michael nope, he just seems rather annoying..so yup.
Friends
Friends? I do not speak of these friends in BSSG, but possibly in other schools though..
The basics
Well I think I'm doing good in school, my average for the progress report was a 70.00 something, I have to put things aside..which is also part of the hanging out issuing, because of other things on my mind. Aside from studying, I have to look for a college-sigh-, reading driving-sigh-, and also look for a job...I neeed deeply..speaking of it I should really get to it...as las, so bai bai journaly of journaly
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 Roxas In Twilight Town · Fri Oct 23, 2009 @ 12:55am · 2 Comments |
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