*le sigh* I'm in such a shitty, angsty mood right now. My boyfriend and I go back to our last year of high school tomorrow. I haven't seen him for a week. I asked him if he wanted to see me, and he declined so he could get ready for school. Normal people probably wouldn't care about this, but I felt personally cut. I took out quite a bit of anger on him, and still am right now. I know it's also because his mother couldn't drive me this time, but I'm still hurt (To those asking, I have no other real way of getting to his house). I feel like he doesn't want to see me at all, like he doesn't care. It's ridiculous, i know he cares, but it doesn't feel like enough. I miss him so much, but I want to tell him to go and do something interesting. He likes to play video games, so if he's not going to talk to me over MSN he might as well do that. But I don't want him to know how much I hurt. And if I tell him to go, he'll see right through me. If he finds out I'm hurt, he'll just say "There there" and expect that to make it better. Nothing can make the hurt better. Not even if he came over, right now. Because I'd feel like he did it only so he could shut me up and not feel guilty.
*sigh* Yeah, that's about it for now. I hate my love life at times like this.
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