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*Disclosure*
This is just my ramblings of my real life issues...i feel that if i record my feelings, this will somehow help me in the future whether it be by publishing my tragic life (exaggerating) or as a reference to what i can do differently in the same situation...
Day 1
i wonder how the events of today were ever real. it was so cliche how i had a terrible night of sleep and how i woke up to the sound of thunder and flashes of light that protruded through my eyelids. It was a very dark and dreary day, yet i was happy since i was about to have 4 days off to relax and spend time with my family. little did i know i was about to be given the shaft from an otherwise great boss that had no choice in the matter. Again, i was happy with the news that we were going to be able to go home a insignificant 2 hours earlier because of the Thanksgiving holiday. Those 2 hours mean a lot when you already have 2 kids and another on the way. Yet, as those last minutes passed and i was ready to leave, i was told "i have to let you go". No warning. No chances. No nothing. I had just recently disclosed my medical "condition" to my boss and asked her to keep it confidential until i had the proof from my doctor. I also wanted confirmation for myself even though i can pretty much tell that i was carrying a child with all the experience i have had prior. I, of course, had no response to this. I actually took it quite well considering i just lost the only income in my household. My boyfriend lost his job some months ago and did not like the opportunity that he was given as a cook. I could understand his position, but at the same time it is not easy being the only person working to keep up with the bills. Not only did i have to tell my family about my lay off, but i had to tell them about my pregnancy as well. I had not told them because they are the type of family that thinks that you should not have kids unless you have money. I see myself like my grandmothers' sister. i believe that a large family brings more happiness in the end because you only have your family to depend on for support and love. Without family, you have nothing. Not that i have been the best sister/daughter/niece in the world, but if you knew my family, you would understand that there is a serious lack of communication. My mothers mother took the news quite well and she is happy for me and Dominic, but she is obviously worried about my not having a job at this time. I do not want to ask anyone for help, but then what happens when i can't pay the rent? What do i do? How can i get help if i don't ask for it? At the same time i know that everyone else have their own problems. It is not easy to find a job when in a few months you will need time off for the delivery of your child. Not even sure if I should try. All i can do now is hope that the government and all the taxpayers can pay my rent and the rest of my bills for me. It is a terrible feeling to know that hard earned dollars are being given away to those that are not working, but then again, how are people going to survive? This is just one more sob story to add to the books. However, i am not sure if this is the right thing to do, but i plan to consult a lawyer. The administrator at my job is the devil. She is the fallen angel sent to hell for corrupting the joy and happiness of all the other angels in heaven. I am not even being sarcastic. Anyone that works for the company knows exactly what i am talking about. I am not one to go suing anyone just for money and for the sake of not having to work, but this goes beyond that. Two of my really good friends were just laid off as well. Not only that, one was on maternity leave because his wife just had a baby and the other one is expecting a baby in May. I hope that my actions will help them as well. There needs to be a stop to this cruelty. Other than that, at this time all i can think about is how we have to cut back on EVERYTHING. The animals are going to have to be fed once a day and we are going to have to cut back on a few things. It is only a miracle that i began Christmas shopping in August so that i would not be broke in December. The plan was to visit family, whether it be in California, New York, or Orlando. The kids shopping is done and the rest of the family was done as well. I am only missing my godchildren and best friend. Tough times are ahead, but all i can do is release some of my tension by writing (typing) my feelings in a journal. There is a reason for things and hopefully i will have something positive come out of this. Til next time.
...princess wishing for a large sum of money to mysteriously appear in her bank account...
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 princess peachey · Thu Nov 26, 2009 @ 04:26am · 0 Comments |
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