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Is this my torture
For things I've done before
Was it so painful to them
The ones that would write like this for me
I hate me
Is there anyone worse
Standing here in the rain
No one can here a scream that I say
No one can prove that they care
And what if they do
Will it replace what he could
I'm selfish for him
But he seems to reject me
I want to leave
And he doesn't want me to go away
Openly telling me I don't belong here
Yet I'm forced by someone to stay
This is still my biggest problem
There has to be an end






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mindviperitachi
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commentCommented on: Mon Mar 29, 2010 @ 12:54am
i remember feeling like this, i remember having such anger and sadness and pain wrapped up like cotton candy on a stick, i hated the feeling because i saw love and didn't want to accept it and, also wanting to accept it but holding myself from it like a baby attracted to fire.
i don't want you to go, i wish i could write you forever and, not have to think about the afterlife, but the more i wish there wasn't one the more i know it's real.
i feel your selfishness for him i know you loved him or are trying to love him. but how can you love him when you hate yourself, if you don't have love in youself or for yourself you can't really love another person , i know the feeling. i love him but what are these feelings for myself i don't understand or i don't want to understand at all.


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