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It is not impossible to say that I'm falling,
but is it possible to say that I'm stalling?
I don't want these feelings to be here,
but with every smile we share they come near.
I had put a barrier around my heart,
but within every day, he tears it apart.

Why must I suffer through my heart?
Why must he be the one from the start?
I guess I wasn't very smart.
I had let him through my castle gate.

Within every thought I wished him gone,
but every word I would say, I would say I'm wrong.
I want him there...
I want him everywhere.

But I can't help but cry for his embrace,
to touch his face,
to feel like I belong
even though my heart cries its wrong.
He always has that part of me,
desire clinging to my misery.

And I wish he couldn't use his charm
and I wish I never reached for his arm.
I wish this misery would escape me.

Why must he be so close to me?
Why must he be the enemy?
Why can't I just escape?

And with every kiss we share,
I find life not even the slightest bit of being fair...
Because I want more of him every time he stares.

He always finds away to pull me in.
He always has me by his side again.
And no matter how much I want to escape,
we always go back to how we began.