Well. Me & Paul had a big fall out the other day after he said he was jealous of someone for getting with a girl he is good friends with. Which after not really bothering with me & Calvin, saying about my weight etc. It really hit me. Plus you just don't say things like that?? Then he brought up the past (what led to why we broke up before other than Calvin).
He's also told me he doesn't want another child, or to get married as he doesn't see the point in wasting money on paper. Which I firmly believe in marriage - commiting yourself to the person you love.. And went briefly talking about it, I don't think he realised I was serious, I will find someone else if need be, someone who loves me that much he'll commit his life to me, make me his family, share his name with me.
So, last night I sent him this text.
It was really sweet seeing you with calvin today - and with your cousins. Starting to remind me of the old you before you moved back home. Again leaving me smiling when you leave. You put calvin to bed perfectly. Though remember to close the door please. Don't want cats in here. Finally. I forgot to say it earlier was enjoying watching you.. You need to think about what you want from us. I want to be with you but i won't tolerate bringing up the past unless it is nice things or something to joke about. Also. I do want to get married and have another baby. So if you are adamant you don't want to, tell me now so i can find someone who does. Goodnight.
Apparently he's been thinking about it all day, isn't it horrible waiting for answers? Especially such an important one? Maybe back to singlehood tonight/soon? I know I'll cope but I like to know where I stand..
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