You know what...just screw it. Screw this other side of me which is so destined to leave me independant and pro-power. I DON'T WANT IT scream I want to be me. I want to be the simple...small town girl who listens to country music, loves long walks in the rain, and who has a raw talent/skill for knowing what people want to hear, need to hear, and should hear. I haven't always been positive towards telling people what they should hear, but after last night...I think it's time for a partial reform of who I am, or at least a part of me. I've fallen in love, and for those who don't belive in it, F**k you because after living without for so long I have come to the conclusion sharing the rises and falls with another who will love you no matter what...well...I don't think it can get too much better than that. I love my DB so much, and it kills me to think I've been pushing him away since day one. Unfortunately that didn't hit me till...last night when he expressed a side that I had never experienced before...especially from someone like him. Needless to say...hearing him, killed me. I'm not trying to make him feel bad about "lashing" out...well, maybe not lashing, but making my errors known to me...I'm so glad he did that. I know if he hadn't expressed his feelings, I wouldn't be nearly determined as I am now to put my 'sour' hearted feelings at bay. I just...I wish I could erase my faults, but that's just life...live it with no regrets and learn from your mistakes, so with that I leave. DragonBringer I love you with all my heart and I'm so sorry for putting you through everything that I have.
Mrs Lexxy DragonBringer · Tue Feb 28, 2006 @ 07:29pm · 2 Comments |