I'd never sing of love
If it does not exist...

Today is just one of those days where I want to sit down and cry. For a very long time. And possibly fade away in the back round. And never be seen again.

I hate feeling like this. I hate thinking. I hate my overly emotional ways and actions. I hate it. I know that I should just leave it how it is and not poke at it anymore. Before I make things 10x worse then they already are. But, it's so hard because I feel shunned and left in the dark. How can someone you love to the point that its unbearable make you feel so much pain. It's so hard and painful not to think about you. I know you haven't left me. But it feels that way. It really does...

I'm too sensitive. I'm too clingy. I mess up way to much.

I wouldn't wanna be with me either.