Quote: If you love something let it go, if it doesn't come back hunt it down and kill it. Haw haw haw..saw this in a thread...funny quote.
I just ate lots of ice cream.
gosh I am SO BORED I HATE GUYS scream scream scream AND I JUST WANNA HUG MY TYLERRRRR!!!! crying crying crying crying gonk gonk
But I am happy! Really, I am, I feel really good to know he's having fun. I'm not freaking out at all as badly as I thought I would be.
Well this morning, slept in till 8, showered...got dressed and ate and browsed gaia. Got dropped off at school, got breakfast, went to first period and had to work with this weird diabetic kid. He had a PUPPY...in his arms. I thought that was odd. The puppy almost fell off the table, but I saved it. Stupid male thing. I just ignored him the whole time. Then I went to lunch, actually the library, read cnn and spaceweather and then went to second period, did lotsa stupid math..did my best though...then I went to weight training...we watched " March of the Penguins" I thought it was ultra cute, sad tooo...made me think about Ty a TON because the penguins where all cuddly and protective and all. crying Tyyllerrrr I Lovveee Youu!!! heart heart we didn't get ter finish it. Then I went to fourth period..eiene helped me with math..he was snappy...I got out to the bus..ugh..too lazy to type......no....must keep typing.....*types*
then got to the car, drove to little sisters school, picked her up and drove home...pigged out, browsed gaia. tTHERE. Hard..can't type...must go away. crying ----------------------later on in the day-----------------
Bler.....g.....I feel kinda sick in my stomach, my body is all screwed up. I'm definitely hitting the hay early. Ty called, good thing too....*sigh* I wanted him to have lots of fun. I just hate how little time we have to share, I got him irritated with me when my brain wasn't working. cry but he seemed to lighten up near the end. I hope he has fun, I want him to enjoy it all. I feel so unlike myself, I just wanna fall asleeeeeep and wake up on sunday, see him smile again. I doubt I'll feel like good ol' me till then, and maybe for a bit after once I get used to the normalness again. Theres so much I miss with him, but right now my dreams consist of just laying down at his side and having him close to feel the heat of his body..to be able to kiss him and look him right in the eyes....
everything feels so distant...I mean the internet and us living apart is easy to handle, but this....this seperation is different and it worries me silly with discomfort. I wanna feel normal again.
Ah, soon enough, friday will come and and end and saturday will roll over...and I will see my love again in due time. Patience is a virtue.
Over and over I look in your eyes you are all I desire you have captured me I want to hold you I want to be close to you I never want to let go I wish that this night would never end I need to know
Could I hold you for for a lifetime Could I look into your eyes Could I have this night to share this night together Could I hold you close beside me Could I hold you for all time Could I could I have this kiss forever Could I could I have this kiss forever, forever
Over and over I've dreamed of this night Now you're here by my side You are next to me I want to hold you and touch you taste you And make you want no one but me I wish that this kiss could never end oh baby please
Could I hold you for a lifetime Could I look into your eyes Could I have this night to share this night together Could I hold you close beside me Could I hold you for all time Could I could I have this kiss forever Could I could I have this kiss forever, forever
I don't want any night to go by Without you by my side I just want all my days Spent being next to you Lived for just loving you And baby, oh by the way
Could I hold you for a lifetime Could I look into your eyes Could I have this night to share this night together Could I hold you close beside me Could I hold you for all time Could I have this kiss forever Could I could I have this kiss forever, forever
Happy St. Patties Day tommorrow.
TheTyro · Fri Mar 17, 2006 @ 01:07am · 0 Comments |