I really don't like things at this very moment. I know that we all die, and I accept that, but I never took into consideration that we break. Sure, i'd see old people with canes and in wheel chairs, but i never really thought about how they got there. It starts slowly and develops. I'm terrified of becoming like that, and i know i am. I'm slowly breaking, as we all are, and i'm feeling it. It makes me regret not taking better care of myself when i was younger. I should have swam more for my back, flossed every night before bed, eaten more veggies, used face washes. Everything is hitting me. Its like it's all happening at once. It's giving me terrible anxiety. I'll be laying in bed about to fall asleep, and then I feel the pain in my wrist or lower back and then sleep is out of the question. I take pain killers to stop the mild pain as soon as possible. I hate this. I'm such a wimp when it comes to this sort of stuff. I'm not a fighter. I really would rather not live than to feel the fact that i'm running down to the ground. I'm already passed my prime...
 Faun of Death · Wed Sep 26, 2012 @ 07:43am · 0 Comments |
